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The Matrix Mysticism

2006-10-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

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While the stated reason for the early release and accelerated post-production process of The Matrix was to beat the marketing hype that surrounded The Phantom Menace, it is not without coincidence that The Matrix was released on the last Easter weekend of the dying twentieth century. It is a parable of the original Judeo-Christian worldview of entrapment in a world gone wrong, with no hope of survival or salvation short of something miraculous. The Matrix is a new testament for a new millennium, a religious parable of the second coming of mankind’s messiah in an age that needs salvation as desperately as any ever has.

Keanu Reeves plays Thomas Anderson, a computer programmer by day who spends his nights in the alternative reality of the Internet, where he goes by the name Neo, spending his time among hackers and phreaks who have come to rely on his expertise. Symbolically, Reeves’ character plays that of both new convert and Christ in the film and is on the receiving end of some of the world’s most ancient wisdom wrapped in some of the best modern technological analogies. "You are a slave" and "We are born into bondage" are the two sentences Morpheus speaks to Neo that reveal the biblical analogy to the Judeo-Christian understanding of slavery to sin. Like the biblical understanding, our technoslavery is a bondage of mankind’s own making, a product of our own free will, as evidenced by Agent Smith’s revelation that this is the second Matrix. The first Matrix, Smith says, was perfect, but we humans decided we wanted to define ourselves through our misery, and so we couldn’t accept it. This is the technological version of the Garden of Eden story from Genesis. There we see that the very first use of technology was clothing, so it is significant that Neo is reborn completely naked.

Within that framework, The Matrix is also the story of the chosen one’s doubts, slow realizations, and final discovery that it is he, and not anyone else, who is the savior. Anderson must first be convinced that the realm he inhabits as Neo has provided him a glimpse of the true reality, while his everyday existence as Thomas Anderson is actually the false consciousness, the world of the Matrix in which he senses, but cannot prove, that something is terribly wrong. This thought tortures him like a "splinter in the mind."

Neo is contacted first by Trinity, a slightly androgynous female counterpart to his slightly androgynous masculinity. It is she who leads Neo to Morpheus. Trinity is an obvious allusion to the biblical concept of a triune God consisting of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Because of the long-standing patriarchal metaphor for God, it is quite humorous when Neo says to Trinity, "I always thought you were a guy." Also of note is the fact that the word "trinity" never actually appears in the Bible. It is during Neo’s second conversation with Morpheus, just after he wakes up from being interrogated, that Morpheus reveals his role as John the Baptist by saying, "You may have been looking for me for a few years, but I’ve been looking for you for my whole life." However, Morpheus also plays the role of God the Father to Neo and the rest of the small band of rebels. He spends a significant part of the film teaching Neo the nature of "reality" as opposed to the world of the Matrix. When Morpheus is captured by the agents, as his body lies there helpless, Trinity says, "No, he’s much more important than that. He’s like a father to us."
To join Morpheus and Trinity in experiencing the depth of this true reality, Neo must be born again. As he is jacked in to the initiation sequence, Cypher tells him, "Buckle your seatbelt, Dorothy, ’cause Kansas is going bye-bye." Reeves’ character is literally born again into the new world in a visually explicit birth from a biotechnical womb that spits him out like a newborn infant: hairless, innocent, covered in muck, and eyes wide open in awe. He sees that he alone, of all the millions of entombed and enwombed humans plugged in as batteries to the Matrix’s mainframe, has been allowed to break free of his shell. The wombs are slightly opaque, allowing the inhabitants to at least glimpse a portion of the reality to which they are enslaved. The implication is that everyone can be freed, following the example set by the savior. (There is also a nice 2001 star child visual reference during this sequence.)

Just prior to his rebirth, Neo turns aside and sees a fragmented mirror, which becomes whole as he looks into it. He is about to make the journey into the self, or psyche, and the metaphor of a shattered universal mirror is one that Huxley and others have also used. He reaches out and touches the mirror, which then becomes whole, which nicely references I Corinthians 13:12, "For now we see through a glass darkly, but then face to face." The mirror then liquifies and swallows Neo, confirming for us that this is essentially an inward journey he is making. Upon being reborn, Neo asks Morpheus why his eyes hurt: "Because you’ve never used them," comes the reply. Or, as William Blake puts it, "If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to us as it is, infinite." In one of the first scenes, we see Neo sell a software program to a character named Troy for two grand, to which Troy replies, "You’re my savior, man, my own personal Jesus Christ." Troy’s reference in this conversation to mescaline is a reference to Huxley’s mescaline experiment book The Doors of Perception. Huxley’s title is drawn from the William Blake quote and was also subsequently the source for the name of Jim Morrison’s rock group, The Doors.

In Greek mythology, Morpheus was the god of dreams, and his name is the linguistic root for words like "morphine" (a drug that induces sleep and freedom from pain) and "morphing" (using computer technology to seamlessly transform from one reality to another). This resonates with the ability of Fishburne’s character to morph back and forth between the dream world (the "real" world) and the waking world (the Matrix). Morpheus asks, "Have you ever had a dream, Neo, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream, Neo? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?" The stage is now set for the film to equate the dream world with the digital world, the world of pure consciousness that exists in infinity. It is an equation that works, because life on the screen is a disembodied life, a virtual existence where the rules of society and the laws of physics don’t necessarily apply, which is why online relationships are so intoxicating and addictive. It’s also one reason why they fail so completely when the people actually meet. Like a movie version of a book, the real version of an online person’s self cannot help but disappoint, simply because the codes and conventions of space and time are so constrictive of the power of imagination.

As Morpheus tells it, the One has been prophesied, like Jesus of Nazareth, from time immemorial. The revealer of ultimate truth is the Oracle, played as a soul-food mama (cf. Meet Joe Black) with more of a sense of humor than seriousness, who nevertheless gives Neo the key insight into the nature of fate vs. free will that is critical to the film’s final twist. That the Oracle is a woman is also a key ingredient in the film’s theology. The brothers Tank and Dozer have their biblical precedents in the apostles James and John, who were also brothers and called the "sons of thunder," which makes sense since both a tank and a bulldozer are modern technological "thunder" makers. But The Matrix is not simply a Christian allegory; it is a complex parable that pulls strongly from Judaism and other traditions. In their initial discussion about the One, both Morpheus and Neo are in cramped quarters wearing what is clearly the garb of concentration camp victims: rough-textured wool and blue-striped bed linens. But because Jewish history has not yet given us a political Messiah, and perhaps because Jesus was himself Jewish, the Wachowski brothers seem to be comfortable relying on Jesus’ story as a precedent for their own. When asked if E.T. wasn’t a retelling of the Christ story, Steven Spielberg said he "resented" the comparison because he was Jewish. So too might the Wachowski brothers have inadvertently relied on the only well-known ressurection messiah story lying around.

And yet critics are saying the film is equally influenced by Zen Buddhism or eastern mysticism. Many of the lines, and certainly the martial arts sequences, are certainly all aspects of an eastern influence. But people often make the mistake of assuming that Judaism and Christianity are somehow exclusively "western" religions. Both are situated geographically and historically in Israel, which is on the Asian continent. The holy city of these two religions is Jerusalem, which sits in the navel of the world, as the meeting point of east and west. In other words, Judaism and Christianity are religions that share and have been influenced by both east and west, and have influenced both eastern and western philosophies since time immemorial. Thus, if you think you’re seeing a lot of Alan Watts’ The Supreme Identity in the film, you probably are. But Watts isn’t seeing something new by saying that east and west can be reconciled, he’s simply pointing out what was there all along.

The Judas character, named Cypher, is sympathetically played by New Jersey tough guy Joe Pantoliano. Like Judas before him at the last supper, Cypher accepts his fate as traitor over a meal. Like Judas, who shares a drink with Christ at the last supper, Cypher and Neo share a cup while Cypher expresses his doubts about the whole crusade with the line, "Why oh why didn’t I take the blue pill?" We see Neo part ways with Cypher by not finishing the drink, but instead handing the remainder over to Cypher. We know Cypher is up to no good when he breaks the convention of social hygiene by finishing Neo’s drink for him after Neo leaves. Cypher also wears a reptile skin coat, which alludes to the biblical figure of Satan as serpent. It is Cypher’s doubts about Morpheus’ certainty that Neo is the One (note the nice anagram of Neo = One) that causes Cypher to betray the cause, because he’s not certain he’s fighting on the right side, or at least not on the winning side. There is a nice mealtime scene, reminiscent both of 2001 and Aliens, in which Mouse waxes philosophic about the nature, essence, and ultimate reality of food, which serves to confirm the drudgery of everyday life for this ragtag team of revolutionaries. The food scene, and the discussion of the woman in the red dress, confirm the loneliness and difficulty of life on the Nebuchadnezzar. Like the faithful of any religion, our apostles are tempted by the Matrix’s illusions and are often led into daydreaming or fantasizing that ignorance really can be bliss. This confirms the Christian idea that the believer really is an alien in this world and is only a visitor, a transient resident, an alien on a temporary visa. As the anti-Christian filmmaker Luis Bunuel accurately puts it, "Properly speaking, there really is no place for the Christian in this world." Neo’s new life is living proof of this maxim.

It is immensely significant that Cypher’s deal-making meal with the agents centers around steak. First, meat is the metaphor that cyberspace inhabitants use to describe the real world: meatspace is the term they use to describe the non-virtual world, a metaphor that clearly shows their preference for the virtual realm. Cypher says that even though he knows the steak isn’t real, it sure seems like it. The stupidity and superficiality of choosing blissful ignorance is revealed when Cypher says that when he is reintegrated into the Matrix he wants to be rich and, "somebody important, like an actor." It’s a line you could almost pass over if it wasn’t so clearly earmarked as the speech of the fool justifying his foolishness. But meat is also the metaphor that media theorist Marshall McLuhan uses to describe the tricky distinction between a medium’s content and its form. As he puts it, "The ‘content’ of a medium is like the juicy piece of meat that the burglar throws to distract the watchdog of the mind." This line illuminates the fact that many people watching The Matrix are seeing only the "content" of the kung-fu scenes and the electronica soundtrack while missing the serious sermon going on all around them. But it also heightens the point that the story is making about the Matrix itself, which is designed, like Huxley’s "brave new world," to oppress you not through totalitarian force, but through totalitarian pleasure. As Agent Smith says, "Isn’t it perfect? Billions of people, just living out their lives, oblivious." "Steak" is also the password revealed for the website at the film’s closing credits, though there are nine passwords total to reveal hidden messages on the website.
Because it’s a Hollywood picture, Jesus has to have a girlfriend, (as he did in The Last Temptation of Christ), who is fantastically played by the little-known Carrie-Anne Moss. Her character, Trinity, is a mix of Mary Magdalene and the Holy Spirit, as evidenced by her earthly-and-yet celestial relationship with the One. She follows him everywhere, and the Oracle has told her she would fall in love with him, and so it is she who represents eternal, infinite, unbounded love by giving Neo the kiss of Princess Charming at the end with the line, "You can’t be dead, because I love you." This line may have had you fighting the gag reflex, but the point is that love is stronger than death, that God is manifested by a triune love relationship, and this was simply the best way to show the miraculous Christ-likeness of Neo. The power of her love to bring him back from the dead is also foreshadowed by her statement that she is the "commanding officer" on the ship, indicating her authority over him. Love is stronger than death, but the film could have shown this in a better way, even if only by developing their emotional relationship by an extra five lines each. Then again, if the Wachowskis are planning two sequels, it would make sense to have them kiss with about as much passion as Leia kisses Luke in Empire Strikes Back. This way we won’t be shocked in three years to discover that they were actually brother and sister, or part of the same heavenly family, all along. But the important thing to remember is that Neo really is dead before this, having been riddled with bullets by the three agents. After receiving the kiss, he is resurrected in the Hollywood equivalent of three days, which is about three seconds.

Upon rising from the dead, Neo experiences the cosmic revelation of his identity, similar and yet dissimilar to Superman. Superman has an Achilles heel in the form of kryptonite and is also powerless to save his father from dying—despite all his other strengths. Neo’s realization, however, is that he has no weaknesses, no fatal flaws, that he is in fact an infinite being. Having had the doors of perception fully cleansed, Neo can now "see" things as they truly are—which is in binary code. He looks down the hallway and sees the three agents as a series of flowing digits, meaning that he alone is now able to bridge the gap between analog and digital realm, able to control the digital rather than be controlled by it. Like the previous messiah that Morpheus alluded to, he is now able to remake the Matrix as he sees fit. He is a bullet-proof Christ, not dying for our sins and coming back, but dying for his unwillingness to believe in his own power, who comes back to life through the power of someone else’s belief, and who then asks us to join him in the fight against the Matrix. Like Jesus, he is the intermediary between our "bound" selves and our free selves. His is the example we are called on to follow in order to remake the Matrix with him.

A sympathetic understanding of Agent Smith is to assume that his hatred of humanity was programmed by the A.I. of the Matrix. This would indicate that the Matrix has learned what humankind failed to learn, which is how to manage A.I. technology successfully. But Agent Smith’s "revelation" speech is flawed: man is obviously a mammal. The fact is that no animal moves instinctively toward an equilibrium with its environment. Every animal is forced there by the competition of other lifeforms. Mankind is unique insofar as it has, alone among species, been able to vanquish its competition. Agent Smith may have been more accurate when he referred to man as a cancer. Just as cancer cells are human, so also human beings are mammals. And Agent Smith, the film makes clear, also wants to escape the Matrix. He has been infected by the "virus" of humanity and is desperate to know the Zion access codes, not so much to destroy the revolutionaries as to free himself.

At the film’s conclusion, the invitation is clear. The film stops where it starts, with us staring at a blinking cursor on the computer screen in Room 303. Neo is making a call to us, sitting out there in the audience, to join him in fighting the Matrix’s bondage. Like the final scene in Superman, Neo flies up and out of the screen as if to help us break free of our bondage, to suggest that he really is real, to suggest that we really can be free. One interpretation is that Neo is flying into us the way he flew into Agent Smith, to liberate us by destroying our preconceptions. In order to understand our preconceptions, our bondage, our slavery, all we need to know is one thing.

Rizal the Mystic

2006-09-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

Based on accurate historical accounts, we now know that the Naga and Rosicrucian brotherhood has existed for thousands of years, influencing and reforming the process of human evolution in this world in the many ways we are not at all very familiar with. To carry out their bidding, the Brotherhood chooses the suitable individual, the most able of men for specific tasks concerning humanity. So who would have thought that our well-regarded hero, Dr. Jose Rizal, besides having had multitudinous accomplishments and titles, the Pride of the Malay race was also an attained mystic. Jose was a high initiate of the Naga and Rosicrucian Brotherhood, both of which are esoteric schools, the repositories of Ancient Wisdom. The hero-mystic utilized this privileged studentship in both these schools to further radiate the self-effulgent Light within himself for his intended purpose of serving his country. This lingering sense of being duty-bound was unceasingly echoed in his Masonic writing which was a lecture titled “Science, Virtue and Labor,” presented in 1889 at his Lodge in Madrid, the noteworthy part which I shall quote below:

“The duty of modern man, to my way of thinking, is to work for the redemption of humanity, because once man is dignified there would be less unfortunate and more happy men that is possible in this life. Humanity cannot be redeemed so long as there are oppressed peoples, so long as there are some men who live on the tears of many, so long as there are emasculated minds and blinded eyes that enabled others to live like sultans who alone may enjoy beauty. Humanity cannot be redeemed while reason is not free, while faith would want to impose itself on facts, while whims are laws, and while there are nations who subjugate on others. For humanity to be able to attain the lofty destiny toward which God guides it, it is necessary that within its fold there should be no dissensions nor tyranny, that plagues do not decimate it and no groans and curses can be heard in its march. It is necessary that its triumphant career march to the tune of the hymns of glory and liberty with a bright face and serene forehead.”

Jose’s childhood was in every way superior to others during his time. Though a sickly boy during his young years, he was able to advance not only physically, but also in intellectual terms. He was able to expand his insatiable thirst of knowledge for the literature, arts and sciences at an immature age. Rizal was truly an advanced soul. This man, an adept-of-all-trade, possessed a keen interest and high degree in culture, and that is indeed a sign of a mystic. But in spite of having a short curriculum on Earth, he became a scientist, polyglot, artist, inventor, writer, among the many others of his feats in relation to his human endeavor. Jose Rizal’s sitting on a high pedestal was in no doubt an ample proof of his mystical leanings and successes, which also sheds light on the mystery of his many abilities.
In his younger years, Rizal had a rigid religious practice and that being exposed in a devout Catholic family. His quest for higher spiritual truths never ceased to fade during the years. In his sojourn in Europe during the early 1980’s, he became a Freemason in Madrid partially which was for his anticlerical purposes. Being in the organization got him in touch with the inner intellectual circle of Europe, most of who were Rosicrucian initiates. Also within the records of the Rosicrucian Grand Lodge in Paris, Jose Rizal was a designated secret Grand Master of the European Jurisdiction. He was highly recognized among Europeans noting not only the fact of his high mystical realization but during his time of stay in Europe, there was a boiling attitude of racial discrimination. Our hero’s European trip was an assimilation of knowledge and also in preparation for his purpose of eradicating clerical tyranny if not Spanish hegemony, over the Philippines.

If we look back at history, it shall come into your understanding that most men who were primed for the task of evolving human consciousness were trained and fitted under the auspices of the esoteric schools like our Order, The Order of the Hermetic Gold and Rose+Cross. They were spiritual practitioners or mystics. Great minds endowed with Wisdom through the practice of secret knowledge were Abraham, Moses, Jesus, Alexander the Great, Napoleon, George Washington, Leonardo da Vinci, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, just to name a few. They were transformed from simple men to great individuals who were shared with Cosmic wisdom so as to let themselves be tools of the Cosmic will. Dr. Jose Rizal was a remarkable individual who achieved a great leap of evolution in his lifetime, having bestowed upon the every mystic’s goal, that is Cosmic Consciousness. As he was made hero for, his Cosmic-appointed task was to be a key by sacrificing his life to the Filipino people in shifting their consciousness towards determination to knowledge, equality, freedom and self-reliance.

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2006-04-24T15:40:00.000+08:00

Oh shit! To what places my mind have been. Im starting to wander far from myself..its like Im in some kind of unexplainable struggle..you dont know who you're having friction with.

I thought I must be the stupidest person around for having thought of the most grandiose label I can impose to myself. I must admit that for some time my ego has been trying to take hold of me. I even dunno what Im thinking about right now, all I know is that Im on an emotion-unleashing phase..

I looked back at all the crap Ive written here..
It doesnt make sense to me anymore..
My personal philosophies I've held on to seems like a heap of trash.

I wanted something which is not me, yet it is in me.
I wanted something which will annihalate my "I"

Do I deserve what I want? I know there are lots of evil in me..
Do I have the chance of having to possess the most coveted price?

Someone is whispering repeatedly theses phrases in my ears..
"..ethical living..must have..ethical living.."

Please help me to struggle..

I thank God now.

Random Thoughts

2006-03-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

What I am writing now is based on my random thoughts. I let it fly over the different horizons, viewing the world from atop the sky. But I cannot be satiated with this view so I'll fly low, taking notes on the details of the landscape..Then I feel I become more powerful.

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Sometimes we suffer because we fail to acknowledge that we are at one time, stupid. We are so egotistic that our self is comparable to a kite without a string, borne away to oblivion. Upon the acknowledgment of our weakness, true strength emerges.

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Really, when I heard that how we perceive things are products of the brainwashings of our environment. I knew it to be true. Its really hard to believe that this country is living in a black propaganda lifestyle-and we are literally feeding on it. What we all think is neither true nor false. If your opinion is that our present living is deteriorating, it is only yours. When the world suffers and feels confused, I stay calm, satisfied and overflowing with joy. Then the world merges with me.

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I knew it but I havent seen it. I dont know it, but I have seen it. By His virtue, I will neither know it or know it not, nor will i see it or will see it not, nor will i taste nor hear nor everything. By the Divine Play all things are set in motion. All is as He wills it. He wills all to be Him.

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It is easy to see how we humans lacked understanding of our own self. So in a futile attempt to try to understand oneself, we categorized, set standards, saw black as black and white as white, perceived poor as poor and rich as rich, differentiated a Christian from a Hindu and Moslem, and a Filipino from an American. We thought we must exist in diversity or variety. So from this conception flowered useless knowledge. But is there such thing as polarity? Or it exists only in the mind? I want to know..

Please, struggle..

2006-03-17T08:16:00.000+08:00

The universe is a battlefield.

I refuse to be beaten. I will not falter. Now that I have awakened a part me, I will punch a hole in every wall, strike my adversaries, and will beat any opposing force. I still refuse to accept the brainwashings that was infused in my brain ever since I was a child, not because I believe those are all deep shits, but because the things that my surroundings were trying to inculcate were wholly false, blatant lies. Its properties constitute the making of a human. Bullshit! We are not humans, what we think of ourselves now are products of our spiritual amnesia. We are Gods and we are God's! The latter statement I shall not cease to prove. If its means to struggle and die..
I will carry my struggle in my bone marrow, ny brain cells, my pores and every miniscule part of my being. I have decreed myself as the epitome of all struggles.

This universe is a battlefield. Those who fight gets the glory and I shall fight to find the story of my existence.

My 1st 365 Days in the Rose Garden

2006-01-16T22:48:00.005+08:00

In the last 365 days, I treaded the path were roses bloom. A very narrow, stone-paved path amidst the garden of roses. I am imagining myself of what I’ll be like when I meet the Gardener who tenders all these roses. With great excitement I’ll prepare myself to meet Him. When I do, all ask Him the nature of His garden, the flowers, the insects, the animals and the sky above His garden. For sure the Gardener will impart to me His methods of planting and how His garden came to be.

As I continued to walk, my mind was diverted to some thoughts. I saw myself being embraced in the Gardener’s presence as we talked. We were happily conversing about many things and I noticed that as I try to catch His pace, all roses of different stages of growth seem to bow in His luminous presence. He walked ahead of me and I followed His steps and in His very path that I also took, the thick bushes of thorns vaporized.
I wasn’t hurt anymore by the thorns as long as the Gardener went ahead. I followed the Gardener further. Farther in front of me, a brilliant light lit. The Gardener was outpacing me. He ran towards it. He seems to be excited to be engulfed in the Light. Before He let Himself be absorbed by the Light, He signaled me to follow Him. My distance from the Gardener was 41 yards when He entered the Great Luminosity.
After He penetrated, the thick bushes of thorns and other obstacles started to materialize before my eyes. The next 40 yards leading to the Light was lonely, hard and exacting. I stumbled as I try to make my way through. Sharp thorns poked my flesh and I bled. I almost gave up but I remembered the Gardener. I longed to be with His presence. With all devotion I persevered until the last 40 yards were over. I didn’t notice that I was making my last yard of thorns when a brilliant white light on the path appeared and swallowed it until I saw no path.
The Light absorbed me and I couldn’t identify myself anymore as me. When the Light became I and I became the Light, I understood all the Gardener’s work and all that I wished to know were known.

As I came back from these thoughts, a particular seed, as if struggling to implant itself firmly in the soil amidst the various stages of the many roses in the vast garden caught my attention. It was ordinary as the other seeds trying to grow in the garden, but I don’t know why it caught my attention.
I also took notice of the difference of the sides in which the seed was trying to plant itself in between. On the left of the seed, the majority were withered roses and rose seeds that failed or stopped germinating. The majority on its right side were healthy, blooming roses and germinating rose seeds. The remaining minority on the left side of the seed were healthy roses and seeds, while the minor population on the right side were ugly, withered roses and wasted seeds.
I felt that these plants have minds of their own, blooming only according to their own wishes no matter how much they are watered.

I was puzzled to see that the most beautiful rose in the garden grew on the top of a rock. I was astounded more that the seed grew on very little water, a subsistence that would prove lethal to its species. The Gardener loved the seed no matter how it lived on little water and sunlight, and the seed too loved Him. Through the Gardener’s love the seed bloomed to become the most beautiful rose.

My mind now was fixed back again to the struggling seed. I knelt with my left knee and touched the seed and wished I could be a help to its growth. I thought of uprooting it and placing it in a good place where there is fertile soil, more sunlight and less competition for water absorption. But in my mind the seed talked. It told me never to mess with its growth or it will will be destroyed.
I gazed at the seed for some time.
Then there was a flashback of events, narrated in exact and vivid manner.

I saw the very first time I entered the rose garden. I also saw that something fell from inside my pocket the very instant I took my first step in the garden. It wasn’t clear to me what it was but the only thing I was sure was that I didn’t brought anything with me. Little by little it came to me that what fell from my pocket was a rose seed, and that rose seed was the struggling seed that I am gazing at right now! I also knew that were I was travelling was circular, a large circular garden. That's why there was an instant I thought I saw this way once.How unaware I was that I have with me that seed even when I still was not taking the path where the roses bloom.
Many things were made clear to me.
Then I saw myself trying to find a way through the last 40 yards of the path! The thought that I had earlier came to me in a vision, hoping to be much exactly a prediction! In my vision, while I was getting more hurt taking my last 40 yards the more the seed hastened its growth.
I stopped seeing things and felt the need to advance in the narrow path where the roses bloom.
Its just my 1st 365 days. There are more thorns ahead and more laps to make.
As I took steps I though again of my seed, the thorny path ahead and the Gardener.
Maybe, as I get hurt treading this thorny path my seed will grow, with the Gardener’s grace.
And maybe when my seed grows, the Gardener will spring from nowhere in the garden and recognize me as His fellow.

Installing Love

2005-12-05T17:25:00.001+08:00

Customer Service: Can you install Love?

Customer: I can do that. I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready to install now. What do I do first?

Service: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, I have, but there are several programs running right now. Is it okay to install while they are running?

Service: What programs are running?

Customer: Let me see… I have Pasthurt.exe, Lowesteem.exe, Grudge.exe and Resentment.com running right now.

Service: No problem. Love will automatically erase Pasthurt.exe from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually overwrite Lowesteem.exe whit a module of its own, called Highesteem.exe. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge.exe and Resentment.com. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed.Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Service: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke Forgiveness.exe. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge.exe and Resentment.com have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, I’m done. Love has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?

Service: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your Heart. Do you see that message?

Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?

Service: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops… I have an error message already. What should I do?

Service: What does the message say?

Customer: It says ”Error 412 – Program not run on internal components.” What does that mean?

Service: Don’t worry, that’s a common problem. It means that the Love program is set up to run on external Hearts but has not yet been running on your Heart. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means that you have to ”love” your own machine before it can ”love” others.

Customer: So what should I do?

Service: Can you find the directory called ”Self-acceptance”?

Customer: Yes, I have it.

Service: Excellent, you are getting good at this.

Customer: Thank you.

Service: You’re welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the ”Myheart” directory: Forgiveself.doc, Selfesteem.txt, Realizeworth.txt and Goodness.doc. The system will overwrite conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete ”Selfcriticize.exe” from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it! Wow! My Heart is filling up with really neat files. Smile.mpg is playing on my monitor right now, and it shows that Warmth.com, Peace.exe and Contentment.com are copying themselves all over my Heart!

Service: Then Love is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go…

Customer: Yes?

Service: Love is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you are meeting. They will in turn share it with other people, and they will return some really neat modules back to you.

Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.

Service: You’re very welcome.

Courtesy: Krupa Darshan, Ranjit Mayekar, USA

23rd SEA Games!

2005-12-01T17:48:00.000+08:00

Fortunately, I was able to watch the wushu competition because our school gym was chosen to host the wushu events. It was great! Team Philippines did a tremendous effort in bagging golds. The most formidable opponent that the Team Philippines faced was Vietnam. Good for us we hosted the SEA Games..way back 2 years ago, Vietnam hosted the 22nd Sea Games and got a total of 150 gold medals! Damn! Now the the Thai PM Thaksin Shinawatra is mumbling about the Thai athletes being cheated, accusing the Philippines of rigging..hmmm..why did they not complain when Vietnam hauled 150 gold medals?
Hehehe..
Anyways..Im really interested to learn the sport, especially the spear thing..I forgot what they call that..but its damn great! Now you guys will cheer for me in the next SEA Games! LoL! Woooooooooooshoooooo!(..i sneezed..)

Fruit of Our Actions

2005-11-22T11:05:00.000+08:00

Whatever joy there is in this world
All comes from desiring others to be happy
And whatever suffering there is in this world
All comes from desiring myself to be happy
-Shantideva

Astig na alaga..

2005-10-10T12:41:00.000+08:00

Napakahilig ko na talaga magalaga ng mga exotic animals mula pa nung bata ako. Nagsimula ako sa mga mumurahing mga "garter snake" kuno, pero local na bronze-back snake lang pala. Nagkaroon din ako ng mga pythons na kasing laki ng hita ko ( take note!yung mga iba po eh nakawala sa bahay..pero di na nakita!), musang, agila, scorpions, squirrels, pati nga leopard cat at porcupine na galing sa Palawan. Talagang animal lover ako..minsan nga eh dinala ko pa sa school ang iba kong mga alaga para takutin ang mga classmates ko, hehe. Pero meron talaga akong isang particular na hayop na paborito..at ito ay ang sugar glider.

'Di ba sa picture pa lang eh talagang nakakatuwa na siya alagaan. Ang mga gliders na ito ay karaniwang nakikita sa Australia at Papua New Guinea. Kabilang sila sa mga marsupials o mga hayop na may pouch kunsaan dun nila nilalagi ang kanilang mga baby hanggang sa paglaki. Kapag trip nilang lumipat sa isang puno ay nagga-glide sila.
Napakalambing din na mga hayop tong mga ito. Nung nagkaroon nga ako ng ganito eh pag di mo sila hinahawakan ay nagtatampo din at parang depressed sila tignan. Basta kung trip niyong magalaga ng mga gliders ay meron tinitinda sa Cartimar. Di ko lang alam kung magkano talaga ang price. Sigurado naman ako na pag nakita niyo ng actual ang hayop na 'to eh talagang matutuwa kayo. Bukod sa hindi mahirap alagaan ay talagang napaka-adorable sila.

Selections on some Discourse of J. Krishnamurti

2005-10-07T14:29:00.000+08:00

I am frequently feeding my soul with philosophical quotes to further enrich my understanding and elevate my maturity..words of wisdom are unsatisfactorily put into language..for no language except that of the soul's, can you be fully satisfied in comprehending the siblimest of the Truths. Human language can only serve as a vehicle for the soul. And when I wade into the philosophical waters like a duckling, the ripples enhances more the reflections of myself on the water rather than blurring it..Philosophy is not a wierd man's discourse, like what most are apt to believe..it serves man so that he may elevate himself from his lowly existences..thats what it is for me..below is a selection from one of the discourses of the celebrated Indian philosopher Jiddu Krishnamurti..

"You follow a system or mould yourself after a pattern because there is fear, the fear of right and wrong which has been established according to the tradition of a system. If thought is merely functioning in the groove of a pattern without understanding the significance of environment, there must be conscious or unconscious fear, and such thought must inevitably lead to confusion, to illusion and false action

"What are you apart from your name and profession, your vows, following some guru? What are you? Or I'll put it another way - are you your name, are you your profession, are you part of the community, part of the tradition? ... Actually, what are you? Is this the first time that this question has been put to you - what are you? Aren't you your fear, aren't you your name, aren't you your body? Aren't you what you think you are the image have built about yourself? Aren't you all that? Aren't you your anger? Or is the anger separate from you? Come on, sirs, aren't you your fears, your ambitions, your greed, your competition, your uncertainty, your confusion, your pain, your sorrow - aren't you all that? Aren't you the guru you follow? So, when you identify yourself with that, aren't you all that? Or are you something higher up - superself, superconsciousness? ..."-Jiddu Krishnamurti

Words of Wisdom

2005-09-20T06:47:00.000+08:00

Some words of wisdom from the Imperator of the Order of the Hermetic Gold and Rose+Cross.
These words of inspiration have made a deep impression on me, I hope that you people will also be inspired, especially to students of esotericism.

Life is a poem. It is the best poem that you can ever write. Write it well. Then at the last moment of your life, when the ink has dried on the poem of life you have written, you will know the satisfaction of having created a masterpiece.

God does not run the universe. God imbues and infuses Himself in all the universe and its creatures. He cannot see us. He can only see Himself. When he sees us, he sees Himself.

You are already complete in your soul. What meditation does is it makes your mind pure. It cleanses your mind so you will realize your Godhood. When meditation becomes the mind, the Self is revealed as God. Really, meditation is the path to remembrance.

Be still and know that I am God. Be still and know that I am. Be still and know. Be still. Be.

To counter spiritual poverty, be compassionate. To counter emotional pain, empathize with others. To counter material poverty, share what you have with others. To counter all poverties, give, give, give!

You can be free from the entanglement of your own self-created illusions, pains and sufferings. All your conceptions are only products of what you have seen and experienced. The amoeba in a petrie dish can never conceive beyond the dish. Even the concept of infinity is limiting. It is a space-time conception. To exist in a moment when you can ride with the winds, jump into the stars, burst forth with supernovae and galaxies, scan the universe, and find that moment has not been split and you have arrived and returned at the moment you have left … for a little while, for a few moments, you become omniscient, one with God.

We are bubbles in awareness, waves upon the sea. There is an ocean of Supreme Awareness. But many of us do not know this, and so we cling to our individuality.

We are small when we think small. We are great when we think big. We are poor when we dwell on our problems. We become wealthy when we dwell on solutions to our problems. We become as a sage when we dwell on the Self.

Ayos!

2005-08-30T09:30:00.000+08:00

Patapos na ang buwan ng Agosto..Ano ano na naman ba ang mga nagbago sa buhay natin? Ano nga ba? Hehe..Nagbukas ako ng telebisyon kaninang umaga at nanood ng Magandang Umaga Pilipinas, na-feature dun ang mga bagong Filipino inventions! Ayos! Iba talaga ang lahi natin, matinik at mahilig mag-innovate! Yung mga tao diyan sa gobyerno na walang ginawa kundi magaway at magbangayan, at nagkakagulo tungkol sa impeachment..mahiya naman kayo! Kesa ganyan ang ginagawa niyo pansinin niyo ang mga imbentor na ito, sila ang isa sa mga totoong BAYANI ng Pilipinas! Sila na may mas sobra pang SILBI kesa sa mga walanghiyang pulitiko na nagpapabaho sa bayan natin! Sana mabigyang pansin ang mga taong ganito na nagmamahal sa bayan natin, bigyan sila ng pondo, at palawakin pa ang kakayahan ng mga Pilipino sa larangan ng siyensiya. Huwag sana hayaang mabulok ang mga imbensiyon na ito o kaya ay mabenta sa ibang bansa dahil sa hindi pagpansin ng gobyerno natin..
Ang kailangan ng Pilipinas ay ang mga taong nagmamahal sa kanya..
Hindi yung kinahihiya siya..
Itaas mo ang noo mo, Pinoy!\m/

Damn!

2005-08-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

Eto yung original post ko:
Makikita po natin ng sobrang malapitan ang planetang Mars sa August 27. Take note, 12:30 po ng madaling araw! Kasing laki ng buwan natin makikita ang Mars! Astig..eh di magmumukhang parang dalawa ang moon natin! Syeeet! Sana 27 na! Gusto ko nang makita ang Red Planet..kaya kayo abangan niyo..yung mga hindi nagpupuyat, magpuyat na! Minsan lang naman kayo malagyan ng eyebag. At minsan sa mahigit sa 200 na taon lang natin makikita ang ganitong pangyayari! Ayon sa astrology, ang pagpapakita ng Mars ay nagpapahiwatig ng nagbabadyang kaguluhan o iba pang masamang bagay. Di ba ang Mars ay god of war..kaya ayun! Ayon lang naman sa mga astrologers..Ako ala akong pakelam kung ganun man ang mangyayari..lahat naman tayo mamamatay din! Hahaha..Basta makita ko lang ang Mars ng sobrang lapit ok na! Abangan niyo din!

Punyemas!Hoax na news pala ang nasagap ko! Ako naman ay naniwala dahil ang pagkakaisip ko ay isang rare astrological phenomenon ang mangyayari..sa aking palagay kasi nung time na yun baka may isang isang di maipaliwanag na force ang gagawa ng illusion para makita ng malapitan ang Mars! Damn! Kung ano kasi ang pinagiisip ko, kulang lang ata ako sa tulog ng mga panahong yun. Naliwanagan ako dahil naisip ko na kung sakaling ganun kalapit ang Mars maaalter ang magnetic field ng Earth, at madaming maapektuhan sa lupa na magiging sanhi ng sakuna! Astronomy 101 bumalik ka!

Realizations of a Seeker and Philospher

2005-08-17T07:06:00.000+08:00

We've been always reminded that we should explore many things in this world...but learning everything isn’t possible even in a thousand lifetime, so we were encouraged to learn whatever we can through correspondence, that is to learn by experience. Learning that is based on theoretical knowledge alone is not good..so here comes the practical part..when endowed with theoretical knowledge, we now merge it with kinesthetic practice. That is what we call complete and true learning. We get the ideas, concepts, theories, doctrines..then test it ourselves if it’s capable of reaping truths within us.
In everyday living, we are continuously bombarded with ideas and concepts. These are not presented to us as truths, but as seeds where it will be left for us to nourish and tend until it becomes a tree and bears the fruit of truth.
You might contend and present interesting arguments but I suggest you contemplate the messages below..for contemplation alone will unlock the hidden messages that is hidden from the “chaotic” mind.

“Only us, our Individual Self, will be able to recognize and realize what is Truth, not others.”

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We might realize that this world is full of technicalities. Scientists, historians, researchers etc., have presented us new findings after another and eventually incorporate their new findings to each respective mainstream body of knowledge. These people have been using a systematic approach when dealing with their objectives. When tests prove or disprove their theories or hypothesis, they come up with a “fact” in their hands thus realizing the “truth” in the tests that they did. We cannot be complete witnesses to the truth because it is only “their” truth. Truth cannot be a second-hand experience, otherwise it can only be considered as a “seed”. Now here comes the question of whether we replicate their tests in other to validate “their facts” presented to us. If possible enough, so we can realize their “truth” and make it ours also, for we cannot, most of our life be contented with “seeds”. How costly would it be for every human to replicate every tests! I say further that we are creatures of higher intellect, having been given a gift of keener and more complex analysis than any other earthly creatures of God! These “seeds” I kept on saying is mostly left for us to realize and dissect based on our mental capability..our analysis..our meticulous investigations, if we don’t have the opportunity of testing it. But I caution you that there will be no complete realization until one is able to test for himself the “facts” that others have been claiming that it is indeed “fact” for them. We might even fail so see a glimpse of the light for most of the time we are imprisoned in our frame of thinking. We fall short of seeing the spark in other ideas.

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Bodies after bodies of knowledge are laid before us, waiting to be devoured by a vicious great white shark unfed by days of unsuccessful hunt. We are left at the mercy of honest and skillfully competitive people who yearn for mankind’s evolution. The sciences of man have been left for the few to uncover new truths and test it, and left for others to absorb and digest. Therefore, it is in their tests and findings that we rely on for source of knowledge. Our personal declaration of interest will be our foundation or preparation for the accumulation of such knowledge. We might get entangled in discourses about philosophy or you might get lost in my allegories, but what is important is that you have your own individual interpretations or comments. If one has fully realized upon contemplation on a certain idea, it will be crystal-clear to him.
What I meant is that when we have questions whether personal or trivial, only our very self has the capability to search for what we are really searching. Realization comes from within. We do not want others to search what we are looking for; otherwise we won’t be able to appreciate the experience of searching and knowing truth for ourselves.

It is totally up to you to interpret what I have written. If you have misunderstood completely and missed my shallow allegories, I have failed with all my strength to impart to you even the partiality of my realizations.

This is Truth for me, what is your Truth?

Yeah! The Bozo is back!

2005-08-12T16:21:00.000+08:00

Dammet! Sa wakas ayos na ang pc ko..wahehe!! Makakapagblog na ako ulit!! Punyetang mga spyware yan!!Bwiseeeeet!!Buti na lang nakalibre ako sa reformat..basta punyetang mga spyware yan!!Isang buwan din ako di nakagamit ng pc!!Walanghiya!!Hehe..

False Satisfaction

2005-07-29T09:55:00.000+08:00

Haaay, patapos na naman ang isang napakagandang buwan..may mga magaganda at pangit na pangyayari sa buhay natin..madaming bagong experiences, meron din paulit-ulit..

Madami lang akong napagisipan, inalam, at sinubukang intindihing mga bagay..

Ewan ko nga kung bakit nahahaluan ako ng inis pag napapasok ito sa isip ko..

Bakit nga ba ang ibang mga tao pag walang magawa sa kanilang buhay, tsismis ang inaatupag, at buhay at pagkakamali ng ibang tao ang nakikita at pinaguusapan??

Grrr..ewan ko ba!Madami akong mga nakitang mga ganun, nakakainis lang..kasi minsan maririnig mo yung mga sinasabi nilang nakakainis sa isang tao pero hindi pala nila alam ganun din sila.
Sana kalat ang salamin dito sa buong mundo para matuto tayo tumingin muna sa ating sarili bago sa iba.

Hindi ba natin maisip na mabubuhay tayo at kalalakihan na lang natin ang mga ganitong kaugalian? Mananatili na lang ba tayong masaya sa paghusga sa kapwa at pagkilatis sa kanilang pagkatao at pagkakamali?
Pakiramdaman natin ang ating mga sarili pag ginagawa natin ang ganitong mga bagay..
Nagkakaroon kasi tayo ng ilusyon na mas mataas ang ating pagkatao kay ganito at ganun, dahil hindi tayo katulad nila..kumbaga para lang masatisfy ang huwad na satisfaction ng ating sarili ay pabababain natin ang ibang tao base sa standards natin para tumaas tayo..oh di ba false satisfaction??

Our crazy country

2005-07-13T09:46:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday..

"Additional 30 minutes.." I sighed, learning from the FX driver that protesters were assembled in Rotonda prompting commuters to take the alternate route. Damn it!
The road from UP Diliman to Project 6 was smooth (Im not sure if its 6! :P), and while inside the FX I was enjoying the humorous emotional downpour of the driver in relation to the current political crisis. He cursed PGMA, FVR, the corrupt politicians..
He was flaming in disgust, citing the discontent and the prevalent poverty in our country.
"Wala nang ginawa ang mga taong ito kundi ang magpahirap!" he blurted out.
He isnt the only one who is not fed up with what is happening to our country, all the Filipinos are!
Corruption, dirty politics, trapos..etc
These are all big pile of filthy shit!

We want democracy, freedom, truth and change yet we are not prepared to pay the cost.
We are fed up of these and that, we want this and that, we desire these things but we dont wholly appreciate their meaning. When these things..democracy, freedom..blah blah..reaches our hands, how we love them at first but disregard them the rest of the time.

I remembered the words that echoed from Guriji earlier..
"..effective change cannot come from the change in constitution, system or leadership..change should start from us..and when we Filipinos realize this, peace and prosperity will not be far."

The key to change is in every individual, unless we mend our crooked ways, all is going to be bullshit for our country.

The Ego, The Self and I

2005-07-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

Ego means "I" or "self", and this "I" or "self" is what most of the time acts on our part. I have been interested in this subject for I have been seeking to conquer it. This "I" when conquered will make us as Masters of our own self.

I may or will not be able to present to you the whole or even the partial concept of what is to be seen from this "Self" for I am just writing this article on my limited point of view (but I'd appreciate a comment so as to widen my horizon on the subject..lets learn from each other, right?)..but what I believe is that to be able to see a bigger picture if this "Self", one must first look inwards..having a sense of introspection of one's personality, examining the deepest and innermost..

When we lose in a game or get chided by our parent, it is not us that is really hurt but this thing called Ego. It gets hurt because because it wants to preseve and uphold its integrity because this Ego thinks that it should not lose, get chided or be trampled upon. A man pumped up by ego thinks he's better than everybody and he can beat anyone who gets on his way.

Lets put it this way. Let us think of the ego as the vehicle and ourself as the driver. If we let the vehicle steer and run itself, it wont even start! Lest run it! If we put a foot on the gas pedal and not put our hands on the steering wheel to direct it, what course will it go? To Neverland! Much worse, we will meet accident. But if we take control of the vehicle like a disciplined driver, we will reach our destination in due time..no accidents, no cops trailing, no fines..
Even in a rough road a disciplined driver will not hesitate to drive smoothly and surely to avoid getting wrecked.

Ego itself is not bad nor good. But not putting it in control will be bad for the individual. It is like an ineradicable inactive pathogen inside the body, once your system wears down it will take advantage of your weakness, activates itself and will cause disease.
What medication should be taken to perpetually eradicate this pathogen?
As I said, this pathogen is ineradicable..only good nutrition and proper maintenance of one's body will the pathogen be put into place to avoid causing harm to the body. A dose of wisdom and sustenance of discipline will work against the ills of ego.

An individual's bloated ego will make him think he's always right in arguments. Even if truth will waive close in his face, still he will not be able to see clearly. Only his sense of "Self" is clear to him, his eternal protagonist.
A person who attains mastery of himself can see the real essence in all things. When the "I" is controlled, the individual yields great power and wisdom.

Think about these people: those who are setting standards in living..what to be, what to wear, what to have, how to act, all this and that..
..those people who think that they are priviledged because they have something that others simply dont have..be it intelligence, money, position, etc..
They are only fooling themselves. They think that life's standard could be measured based on these things. That what the Ego enjoys..that what satiates desire..that what the hands can own..those are the things that are important for them. These people want to put themselves in a special place where they think only the privileged are able to venture in and bathe themselves with the intoxicating idea of superiority from others. Or much worse, they will disparate or belittle the accomplishments of a person..and will put the person down just to elevate one's standing.

We cannot accomplish anything of value when we do such things, except prove to the multitude that we are in our wrong sense of self. Nobody, except the Ego, benefits from the practice of proving oneself as really important when in fact we are not.

How many crooked traits can be straightened up when we have our Ego straightened up first?

Just ask this to yourself: What thing did my Ego not do today?

Announcement

2005-06-29T18:04:00.000+08:00

Magkakaroon nga po pala ng concert ang Philippine Classical Guitar Society this Saturday, July 2 sa UP Diliman sa Bahay ng mga Alumni at around 2 PM. P80 lang po ang entrance fee..Hope we would learn to appreciate listening to classical music and experience its benefits. If you have any inquiries, feel free to contact me. (09217721515)

Hope to see you this Saturday!

Pagaalab ng Lahi ng mga Maharlika

2005-06-12T17:05:00.000+08:00

Dumating na nga ba talaga ang kalayaan natin 107 taon na ang nakakaraan? Kung titignan natin sa loob ng mga taong yaon, pisikal na kalayaan lang ang nakamit ng mga Pilipino. Sa ating mga diwa tila nakakulong tayo sa panahon na tayo'y sakop ng mga dayuhan. Tayo ay lahi na natutong ikamuhi ang sarili natin at sambahin, tangkilikin kung ano ang dayuhan.

Bakit nga ba ipinaglaban ng mga bayani natin ang ating kalayaan? Bakit nga ba?
Dahil ba para lang magkaroon tayo ng sariling pamahalaan na walang sinumang dayuhan ang nakikialam? Kulang..
Ang mga taong nakipaglaban noon at namatay para sa ating bayan ay naniniwala sa galing ng ating lahi. Naniniwala sila na kahit kailan ay hindi tayo maaaring turuan ninuman, na hindi tayo mga mangmang, na hindi tayo mga barbaro. Ipinigtanggol ng mga bayaning ito ang matagal nang aping lahi natin sa pagasang matututo tayo sa sarili natin umangat na hindi nangangailangan ng tulong ng iba at hindi pababayaan na sinuman ang sumagasa sa atin.

Sa ating kasaysayan, wala tayong masyadong alam bago pa man sa panahon ni Lapu Lapu. Sinadyang tanggalin ng mga kabrong Espanyol ang mga orihinal na tala na isinulat ng mga naunang mga Espanyol na napadpad sa Pilipinas. Hanggang doon na lang ang nalalaman natin, kung meron man ay kakapiranggot. Nabibilang lamang ang mga nakakaalam na tayo'y isang lahi ng mga maharlika, sa wikang Ingles ay "noble" ika nga. Sa talaan ng isang dinastiya sa Tsina ay may kakalakal silang mga "siyudad-estado" o pagsasama-sama ng mga malayang estado sa isang grupo ng mga pulo sa ibaba ng Taiwan at binansagan nila itong Ma'i. Binanggit din sa mga talaan kung gaano katapat ang mga tao ng Ma'i sa pakikipagkalakal at ang pagiging masunurin nito sa bawat lokal na batas.
Matagal na panahon pa siguro bago pa natin malaman ang ating mga nawalang kasaysayan, siguro sa pagkakakulang ng mga impormasyon tungkol sa kasaysayan natin ay siya ding pagkakakulang ng tiwala sa sarili at kawalang ng pangalan o "identity" ng mga Pilipino.

Ang sinaunang alpabeto ng mga Pilipino, ang alibata ay halos hindi alam ng karamihan at ang wika natin ay pawang gusto na natin palitan. Ang wika ng kaluluwa ng lahi natin ay kahit kailan hindi matutumbasan ng kahit ano mang wika.

Nakakainis at nakakalungkot, parang gusto nating burahin ang ating pagkatao at kasaysayan at itakwil kung ano tayo. Madami ang nagiisip at narinig kong isinambit nila ang mga paghiling na sana sa ibang bansa na maunlad sila ipinanganak. Kung titignan natin ang mga mauunlad na bansa-ang Hapon, Tsina, Estados Unidos, Britanya, Pransiya, Alemanya atbp.-ang mga bansang ito ay napakapatriyotiko, at yun ang dahilan kung bakit sila angat sa ibang bansa. Kung lahat ng Pilipino ay wagas ang pagmamahal sa Pilipinas at kapwa Pilipino, hindi malayo na mangyari ang sa tingin ng iba ay posible lamang sa ilusyon ng isang mangmang.

Napagisip-isip ko na hindi pa pala natin nakamit ang totoong kalayaan ng Pilipinas. Sa lagay ng bansa natin ngayon, puro gulo, puro alitan, sigurado ako na madami pa tayong kakaining bigas bago pa man natin maasam ang mga panahong magiging maunlad at malaya tayo.
Hindi tayo malaya dahil hindi tayo malaya sa kawalang kaisahan- ang puro alitan ay nagpapabagsak sa bayan natin. Imbis na trabaho ang asikasuhin ay para tayong mga alimango na hinihila ang isa na paakyat sa hukay. Imbis na trabahuhin ang pagaayos sa bansa ay pagwasak ang nangyayari.
Hindi tayo malaya dahil hindi tayo malaya sa katamaran, sa kawalang determinasyon, sa kagulangan at iba pang mga ugali na binansagan nating "ugaling Pilipino"- ating pakatandaan na hindi likas sa ating mga mga ugaling nabanggit, dahil sa pagsunod natin at pagakap sa tinurong mali ng mga dayuhan ay nalaman natin na maging tamad, maging mandurugas etc.. Masyado tayong naniwala na mas tama ang alam ng mga puti kesa sa kung ano ang alam natin.
Hindi tayo malaya dahil hindi tayo malaya sa mali nating pagiisip-na mas lamang ang mga puti, na mas maganda ang produkto nila at dekalidad kesa sa atin, na mas sosyal pakinggan ang wikang Pranses at Ingles kesa sa Pilipino, na mas maganda ang puti sa kayumanggi, na mas matatalino at madaming nagagawa ang mga ibang lahi kesa sa atin. Kelan natin mapagtatanto na ang pagtira sa ibang bansa, pagkakaroon nga maraming dolyar at kotseng Ford o Ferrari, pagkakaroon ng asawang Espanyol, pagmamayari ng mansyon sa Paris, pagmamayari ng titulo na ikaw ay isang "American citizen" ay kailanman hindi magiging basehan ng maayos na buhay at matinong pagkatao.

PUTANGINA! Magising na tayo! Kelan ba magaalab ang lahi ng mga maharlika? Kelan ba natin malalaman ang bangis ng lahing Pilipino. Kelan natin ipapamalas ang mga pangil natin? Ang mga kamandag natin? Kelan natin aaminin na mas matibay ang sapatos Marikina kesa sa sapatos na gawa sa Paris? Na mas imortal si Pacquio at Flash Elorde kesa kay Tyson at Ali? Kelan natin tatanggapin na mas nakakahumaling ang pansit at lechon kesa sa spaghetti at hamburger? Na mas masaya sumakay sa jeep kesa sa Porsche? Kelan natin malalaman na mas kaya natin galingan kesa sa mga Tsino, Amerikano at Ruso? Kelan tayo maniniwala sa lahi natin?
Kelan masasagi sa isip natin ay para tayong masarap na balut. Sa unang tingin ay kadiri at nakakasuka, pero kapag natikman na ay masustansya pala at napakasarap.
Sa paguumpisa sa pagbabago sa mga sarili natin ang kinakailangan para madali tayong makaangat.

Ating pakatandaan, hindi tayo lahi ng mga tamad, mga mandurugas, mga manggagantso, mga walang alam, mga tanga..TAYO AY LAHI NG MGA MAHARLIKA AT IBALIK NATIN ANG DATING KADAKILAAN NG MGA NINUNO NATIN!

"Give me a battalion of Filipinos and I will conquer the world"- Gen. McArthur

I've got a letter for you, Mr. Bush!

2005-06-05T00:38:00.000+08:00

Dear Mr. Bush,

These people you see in the pictures are not insurgents, they are ordinary Iraqis. They wanted neither Saddam nor your occupation forces. What wrong have they done to deserve such punishments? Do these people deserve to suffer and die? Are they to be punished because they had a very evil dictator? The Iraqi people have suffered long enough, Mr. Bush. So much blood have been spilled. A million barrel of oil does not equal to that of a single drop of blood of the child you see above who died because of your missile. Thank you so much Mr. Bush, for a good life full of peace and prosperity was only possible through dreams for ordinary Iraqis. I wonder how many millions of people are cursing you. God have pity on you, Mr. Warmonger.

Sincerely yours,
d-1-who-wants-to-kick-yer-ass-badly

"Hidden"

2005-05-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

The path to mysticism, occultism..is an arduous one. To ascend the path is to journey the difficult trail. I have been into the Western esoteric tradition of Rosicrucianism, and being in the path I have encountered ridicule from people who barely know nothing about it but pure superstition and some, distorted and wrong perception of mysticism. Let it be known to you that occult means "hidden", and that occult teachings are hidden to the mundane world whose interest lies mainly in the superficial.

It saddens me that so many still possess a weak understanding about mysticism, being fed with plethora of superstitions and the wrong perception about it. For them it is wrong and "evil". But what the heck do they know about it? Nada, nothing. You cant judge something you dont even know. You cant judge something which you only know is just a piece of it, but this partial that you know is mostly wrong because your senses and thinking have deceived you into believing what you mistakenly knew. Rosicrucianism has been the subject of many controversial books, and to those who have read those books claimed that they have a background of it. But what they know are useless, incomplete, unfounded claims. They dont even have a glimpse of the partial of what is true. Truth escapes their understanding. To know if something is Truth, one must first experience it in order to validate its Truthfulness. Mysticism is a path to the Divine, the Ineffable One..not the black magic or sorcery or the bad things that you commonly know. I have taken ridicule and doubts of people when I try to tell them the path to what is Good, but I didnt bother. Ridicule is the tool of the insecure, the ignorant, the lazy, who because of their own failings and lack of initiative want to bring others down to their level by making them look bad.

Exclusiveness is not the name of the game for the Rosicrucian Order, except to those with questionable character and intentions. We as students of the Path rejoices in finding it but we humble our selves for pride is the most useless of all virtues. Humility is not looking down on the ants and thinking how big you are, but looking up at the mountains and seeing how small you are. We do not satisfy ourselves by keeping what we know only to ourselves nor we take pride in the possession of hidden knowledge, we feel satisfaction in knowing that we led a person to what should be known. What use is hidden knowledge to a man if he doesnt know good? If he puts God as his first priority, his second priority, his third priority and so on ad infinitum..God will reveal to him (if he is patient) the secrets to do what is impossible.

There are many esoteric paths..Rosicrucianism and Martinism in Christianity..Sufism in Islam..Kabbalah in Judaism..Tantra and Yoga in Hinduism..and many more in Buddhism, Sikhism, and other religions..all which speak of the Utmost goal, which is union with God.

And all the spiritual experiences you have, you shall cherish. You will not exchange this rich undertakings even to the most sumptuous earthly offers. And you will need not to convince others by their mindless inquisitions to try to know your experiences in a futile attempt to satisfy their curiosity, for you will only meet ridicule, and you know it yourself what the Truth is and you shall continue to speak it and preach it..and lead others to the right path.

A Sufi prophet (Sufism-mystical part if Islam) said:"Meditation in Allah is my capital. Contemplation of Allah is my companion. Reason is the root of my religion. Love is the foundation of my existence. Truth is my salvation.Submission to the Divine Will is my pride.Knowledge is my garb and virtue. Worship is my habit. Grief is my friend. Enthusiasm is the vehicle of my life. And my utmost happiness lies in prayer."

The Miracle of Love

2005-05-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

Mukhang sinisipag ata ako sa pagsusulat ah? Summer kasi at wala halos magawa, mabuti na ito at may nagagawa akong kapakipakinabang. Kapag may klase na kasi, wala na baka malimutan ko na may blogsite pala ako. Kaya habang may panahon, hihirit ako ng hihirit.

"Ano ba yan pare? Sa lahat ng paksa na maiisip mo eh tungkol pa sa pag-ibig! How baduy naman pare!" Wala namang nagsabi niyan, pumasok lang sa isip ko na baka balakin mong isipin yan at uunahan na kita. Maaaring makornihan ka nga o maging interesado ka pero sa huli maiisip mo din na ang love is the essence of our very existence. Kaya sumandal ka na lang sa upuuan mo at magbasa.

Napakaraming tanong na akala natin ay simple, pero kung titignan mo kahit ilang araw mong pagpuyatan sa kakaisip eh hindi ka makaisip ng kahit pahapyaw na sagot man lang. Maaaring makasumpong tayo ng sagot na sa palagay natin ay tama, pero kung bibigyan pa natin ng malalim pa pansin ay ang ating "ego" lang pala ang nasasatisfy. Bakit nga ba kelangan magmahal? Ano ang naguudyok sa atin na magmahal? Madaling sagutin ito para sa taong mabababaw ang pilosopiya..pero sa huli hindi na magiging importante ang mga tanong na ito..mas masarap na nararamdaman mo ito at lalo na kapag may nagbibigay sa iyo nito. Basta ako mangha pa din sa kayang gawin ng pagibig.

Dito talaga sa emosyon na ito ako naiintriga. It is something that drives people crazy, mad..It is something that makes an individual do beyond what he can. Some say that love, other than complex thinking, is what elevates us from the rest in the animal kingdom. Totoo kaya? Sa tingin ba natin ang mga hayop ay di nakakaramdam nito? Tignan mo ang alaga mong aso, ang chimpanzee sa zoo na kamukha mo. Marunong din yang mga yan. Kaya kapag di marunong magmahal ang isang tao, siya ay nasa pinakailalim sa echelon ng sangkahayupan. Mas grabe ka pa sa butiki na kumakain ng lamok sa gabi.

Kung paguusapan din naman natin ang pagmamahal eh walang tatalo sa pagmamahal ng ina. Dabes! Ikaw ba naman ay dalin sa kanyang sinapupunan ng siyam na buwan,(kapag mukha kang retarded, expect mo kulang ka sa buwan..ooops maya na ang tingin sa salamin!) tapos pinahihirapan mo pa ang tatay mo sa kakabalik-balik sa palengke dahil biglang bago ang isip ng nanay mo dahil imbis na sa suha ka ipaglilihi eh sa mangang hilaw with matching bagoong napunta. (malas mo kasi hindi ka sa mangang hilaw napaglihihan kundi sa bagoong!haha!) Kaya't ng ipapanganak ka na ay ang isang paa ng nanay mo ay nasa hukay na, hirap siyang iire ka dahil ang laki ng ulo mo at labas-pasok ka sa pwerta..hirap na hirap ang nanay mo sa kakaire..
"WHOOOOO!WHOOOOO!.."
"Sige pa..ire pa ng konti..yan na!"
"WHOOOOO!WHoOoOooo......."
~wapak!~
"waa..ungaaaa!"
Di mo lubos maisip ang hirap niya. Tapos noong bata ka pa siya pa din ang nagpapaligo sa iyo, naghuhugas ng pwet mo, nagpapatulog sa iyo..Tapos hanggang sa lumaki ka, pag wala kang pang-tuition ay ipangungutang niya talaga ang malaking tuition fee makapagaral ka lang sa private..pati ang baon mo ay gagawan at gagawan niya talaga ng paraan..pati ang mga paguwi mo ng gabi ay sinusubaybayan ka at pagpupuyatan niya ang paghihintay sayo hanggat makauwi ka dahil hindi siya mapakali kung safe ka ba sa kinalalagyan mo..hanggang darating ang panahon na matututo ka nang sumagot sa nanay mo, at ang gagawin na lang ng nanay mo ay umiyak ng patago at ipagdasal ka dahil mahal ka niya..

Balik naman tayo sa hayskul na buhay. Tuwing nabubuksan ang paksang ito ay madami ang nakikiliti't natutuwa para bagang hindi mo mapigilan ang mga pagiisip nila sa pagalala sa mga nakaraan..Sino bang hindi makikiliti? Eh halos lahat na ng mga kalokohan natin ay diyan nagumpisa. Yung gerlpren mo nung hayskul? Eh yung boypren mo, sino? Nakakatuwang maalala..kaming mga lalaki ay may pabigay-bigay pa ng love letter na iba naman ang nagisip at nagsulat..ang istap toy na ireregalo mo tapos ang bespren mong babae pa ang pumili, na siya din ang backer mo sa nililigawan mo..tapos sa huli magiging kayo din pala. Ilang beses mo din bang ginawang hindi kumain sa recess pati sa lunch para lang makapagipon sa ibibigay mo sa kanyang silver na bracelet o kaya ay istap toy?(madalas kasi yan mga binibigay na regalo, di ba ginawa mo dati yun?aminin?hehe) Naalala mo din ba na ihahatid mo pala dapat ang nililigawan mo pero naubusan ka ng pera at nagawa mo pang ipangutang ang pamasahe niyong dalawa?

Talaga nga naman ang pagibig..eto pa!..Napanood mo ba dati yung isang episode sa "Maalaala mo kaya?", yung episode na yung tatay niya ay ibenenta yung mga organs niya para lang may pangtustos sa pangaral na anak niya pati sa pangaraw-araw na kailangan? Yung nanay na pinuputa ang sarili para lang makakain ang mga anak niya? Kitams..kahit madalas makakasama sa sarili..kakalimutan niya ang sarili para lang sa mas ikagaganda ng kanyang minamahal.

Namamangha talaga ako sa himala ng pagmamahal..may mga bagay na hindi natin maatim gawin pero dahil sa pagmamahal ay nagagawa natin. May mga bagay naman na gusto natin gawin pero dahil hindi dapat, hindi natin gagawin. Bakit? Kasi dahil dun na naman.
And because of love we continue to exist, we continue to perpetuate the life cycle. You may not see this but through love, we make our decisions..even when we decide if we want to buy a pair of shoes or eat 10 cups of rice or smoke coke.."i want to buy a pair of shoes because i love myself, i wanna look good! id eat 10 cups of rice because i love myself, i dont want to stay forever thin! i like smoking coke because i love to.."..kahit ang pagsapok mo sa kapwa mo ay may pagmamahal..pagmamahal naman sa demonyo. (kaya kung madami ka nang nasapak, hala ka ang daming nakasunod sa likod mo..mga kamukha mo!)

Kahit ano pa mang mga mahihirap na tanong ang tumambad sa harap natin, kesyo walang mga sagot sa mga katanungang yaon..ang mas importante pa din ay nagmamahal tayo kasi yun ang maganda..sa totoo at tamang pagmamahal lahat ay balanse..

sa totoo at tamang pagmamahal nandun ang Diyos..

kaya wag kang magtataka kung bakit minsan may himala..

Isang tanong

2005-05-20T13:08:00.000+08:00

Meron akong tanong na pinagmumunian mula pa nung ako ay maliit pa..pero di naglaon ay nakahanap din ako ng sagot dito..itanong niyo din sa sarili niyo..

Talaga bang may impyerno para sa taong makasalanan, kung saan habang panahon kang parurusuhan? Wala na ba talagang pagasa ang isang makasalanang yumao na?

Pagisipan niyo mabuti..makakahanap din kayo ng sagot..kung hahanapin niyo talaga..

Concentration, Awareness, Consciousness..

2005-05-18T20:26:00.000+08:00

Oftentimes this happens:

-You are in a class..with all your attention focused on your professor as he teaches..suddenly, hordes of thoughts rushes at you..

"The girl at my back is kinda cute.."

"When is this bullsh*t gonna end?"

"..i forgot to feed my dog!darn!"

-You are in the bus riding on your way back home..and you are thinking about the strategies you'll do in your very significant presentation in your work..then, your thoughts drifted..you remembered the things that happened hours before..you remembered about the trash you left at your desk..then you got worried about what food you'll eat later..you started predicting the outcome of your activities..you visualize the things you desire..your brain is busy manufacturing vivid images, events, conversations..you are so immersed in it that for you it is actually happening at the moment.

-You are walking on your way to the mall..as usual, you are flooded again by your thoughts and memories..you are so much engaged on what you are thinking and "seeing" that you already forgot you are walking..you are now on the "auto-pilot mode". You fail to notice the streets littered with vendors and garbages alike, the people passing by, the Meralco posts, parked cars, jeepneys waiting for passengers..you were not aware of these things for your mind is busy concocting images..you also failed to notice that you are already inside the mall (and how you strolled your way to it).

Familiar? Can we count in one day the number of times our mind was bombarded with one though after the other? (For sure you have not been aware, for you've been daydreaming all along) Most of the time we lose concentration on what we are doing, even in the simplest work we let our minds succumb to this phenomenon. By being aware of the present, we reward ourselves with efficiency and effectiveness..and more than that, we become somebody else..we become masters of our mind and body. When we lose our thoughts, we become "mindless" thus we lose the opportunity of enjoying every moment of our lives. "Catch the monkey", was once said by an Oriental mystic-philospher. He characterized the mind as "difficult to keep still" and "restless". We let our minds unstill and restless and we let the essence of what we are loose. We do not live the moment. "To chain the monkey" is to minimize distractions. We try to focus first on the important things, and the lesser important ones we set aside. We should become conscious, that is the be aware of our presence, our existence in this very place. Synchronizing our mind with our body is no simple feat, and to accomplish taming it would be an achievement for it will allow the mind to do a more higher work. If we are able to "catch the monkey",then it has "bananas" with it.

2005-05-10T15:32:00.000+08:00

This is the price of spreading freedom throughout the world..1,599 American soldiers dead (including 3 Marines killed in this suicide bombing attack) and thousands of innocent Iraqis killed..Darn, the end does'nt justify the means..meanwhile, let the Americans count their bodies and when their leader sees enough, he'll go crazy..so much blood,so much destruction! we are fed up!

Kingdom of Heaven

2005-05-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

Its good Ive watched the movie that I've been anticipating for so long..satisfied naman kahit papaano! Napakaastig talaga si Ridley Scott gumawa ng war movies! Nagustuhan ko din dati yung mga dati niyang gawa tulad ng Black Hawk Down at Gladiator. Medyo hindi ko nga lang tingin na nababagay kay Orlando Bloom ang role niya, nevertheless ok naman ang performance niya. Pakiramdam ko nga pagkatapos ko lumabas ng sinehan eh nakapunta na ako sa lugar na yon, parang may sense of attachment sa napanood ko. Sana lang naging Templars ako sa mga naunang buhay ko..
Magbasa din kayo tungkol kay Saladin( yung kalaban ng mga Crusades sa movie), ang pinakasikat na bayaning Muslim, para malaman niyo kung bakit ganoon na lamang ang pagkakakilala sa kanya at ang kasaysayan niya mapatungkol sa mga Crusades..
At kung hindi niyo pa napapanood, manood na kayo lalo na yung mga mahihina sa history!Hahaha

Give..

2005-05-01T02:25:00.000+08:00

Read this wonderful insight from an unknown philosopher..napakaganda! Isapuso natin at tignan kung ano ang pupuede magawa nito sa buhay natin:

When we have trouble with the people in our life, it is almost always because we dont want to give them something. The giving does not necessarily mean material things. It means we dont want to give them a genuine acknowledgment of their being, their position, their understanding. We hold back, because we tell ourselves that they dont deserve it, or that we will lose something by acknowledging them for something, or we insist on seeing the shallowest part of their character, refusing to see the darkness, ignorance, confusion or suffering that lies behind it. In short, we judge, and when we cannot give, we are the ones who suffer the most from this psychic blockage. In giving, we can lose nothing, except the limitations of our personal sense of self.

Lost Tribe of Israel

2005-04-27T08:42:00.000+08:00

Mizoram Jews ( Shinlungs )

Nearly 1.5 million Jews known as B'nai Menmasseh ( Children of Manasseh ) who lives in Northeastern India could be one of the lost tribes of Israel. The Israelite kingdom was divided into two when King Solomon died: the north and the south kingdom respectively. The ten tribes which comprised the south kingdom were: Reuben, Simeon, Levi, Issachar, Zebulun, Gad, Asher, Dan, Naphtali, as well as Ephraim and Manasseh .

When the Assyrians sacked Israel, they made the Israelites scatter around the different parts of their empire. Many experts also say that the lost tribes also sought refuge in Afghanistan and Kashmir through the famous ancient Silk Road.

A documented visit by Protestant missionaries in 1894 suggested that the Mizorams could be one of the descendant of the lost tribes of Israel. Apart from their songs that contained stories about the sea parting for them and about pillars of cloud and fire, it is also worth noticing that these people follow Jewish customs.

As you see in the picture above, they look very much like Southeast Asians. Some members of the Mizorams were subjected to the DNA test, and the result kinda shocked everybody. The DNA test showed that they have traces of Middle Eastern origin, and their physical appearance which has the features of a Burmese, was the result of intermarriage among the people in their place.

Their identification, maybe is an apocalyptic signal (maybe, hope not..). The following bible passages (Ezekiel 47:13 and Ezekiel 48: 1-27; Jeremiah 3:17, 18; Isaiah 27: 12, 13, 11:12 and 63: 16-19; Zechariah 10: 6, 9 and 10) says that the 10 lost tribes of Israel will be identified and returned to Israel in the Last Days. Its not yet over, though. They still have to look for the 9 other tribes. Many experts say they are in Kashmir (Kashmiri people do look like Europeans,& they also use Hebrew names) and Afghanistan, some also say that the Japanese are one of the lost tribes. Who knows? Maybe we are..

Frustrations

2005-01-29T09:45:00.000+08:00

Thinking of the failures

and unaccomplished adventures

I gaze up the sky, frustrated

Filling myself with hatred

My goals, unreal, undone

My vigor, my will, are gone

A broken spirit scattered

Scathed and left tattered

The will to rise again diminished

Taunted by a creature banished

Pondering, thinking deep

Somebody put me in a perpetual sleep

Frustrations, a real nightmare

For the weak spirited, a snare

Nothing for me but unvisualized dreams

Something that the light never shed its beams

Usapang Inuman.. .

2005-01-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

Ooops, si tanggero may amats na, laging umaaapaw ang tagay di kasi matantsa..
ang isang kainuman, tulog na..yung isa naman nasa banyo nagsusuka..
yung isa pa buong galak na tumutugtog ng gitara..
basta kami dito masayang nagiinuman at naguusap..
problema sa syota, sa ermats, pati ang pang-tuition ang paksa..
ayan na, paunti-unting lumalabas ang sensitive side ng isa't isa
habang patuloy ang pagikot ng baso..

mahigit sa isang case na din ng redhorse ang aming nalalaklak..
halos lahat na ng elemento ng isang inuman ay nandito..
usok, bote, suka ng kainuman, pulutan, kulitan, music syempre..
at malilimutan ko ba banggitin ang isang bagay na hindi-hindi
magiging kumpleto ang isang inuman pag wala nito?..
last but not the least..ang usapang inuman!Yehey!

kanina nga lang ang isang kaklase na super yabang ang naging topic..
yun, palitan ng opinyon sa kanya..
"ay oo, bad trip ako dun sa taong yan, kainis!super yabang!"
"inis nga ko dun, sobrang feeling guapo!yuck!"
yung mga bagay na di dapat sinasabi, kumawala na..
nilabas ang sama ng loob sa kaklase mo na ang kasalanan lang niya
ay ang kanyang pagiging mayabang..
wala na, natulak na ng alak ang pagiisip natin na magsabi ng
mga bagay-bgay..
para bang kilala na natin ang tao at nahusgahan na natin
sa mga maliliit na bagay kinainisan na natin..
halos may mga ganitong katulad na paksa sa isang inuman..
wala lang basta may mapagusapan lang..eh ang dami daming topic
na puede pagusapan..yung pang madalas makasira..
puede naman siguro pagusapan ang mga bagay na constructive
at hindi destructive..
madalas kasi nangyayari yun sa mga makaklase, magbabarkada
na nagiinuman..
ang hindi magustuhang tao yun ang paguusapan..
iba-iba tayo, iba-ibang ugali din..
may kanya-kanya din naman tayong di kanais-nais na ugali d'ba?
sigurado ako na mahirap ang pakiramdam kapag minsan ikaw ang
nagiging paksa ng isang usapan, lalo na kung hindi maganda
ang dating sa reputasyon mo..
ibang topic naman oh?Puro personal critisms na lang kasi eh..

tawanan na naman ang nangingibabaw..
yung isang kainuman ko eh ubo na ng ubo
dahil sa ibinubugang usok galing sa yosi ng isa pang kainuman..
hindi na napansin yung mga boteng nagsipagtumba na dahil sa puro sagi..
mga pulutan tapun-tapon..
eto naman isang pang katoto..
hindi maistorbo sa kanyang mundo
bawat pitik sa kanyang gitara sabay kanta nga mga awit panginuman..
samantalang ako dito may nararamdamang di kakaiba..
tila may bubulwak!
"mukang naparami ang inom ko ah..BWHAAAAAAARK!"

Sino ba si Che Guevarra??

2005-01-11T09:49:00.000+08:00

Minsan may napagtanungan akong kaibigan na may suot-suot na pulang t-shirt na may portrait ni che guevarra. Tinanong ko siya kung sino yung taong nakaimprinta sa kanyang t-shirt, sumagot siya "Kenneth, si Che Guevarra yan!" buong pagmamayabang niyang sinabi. Pero nung tinanong ko kung sino ano siya at bakit siya kilala, ang sinabi niya ng walang pagaalinlangan sakin "Dude, rockstar kasi siya". Pangasar di ba? May napagtanungan din akong ibang tao at ganun din ang isinagot. Nakakatawa na nakakaasar. Grrrr..kainis!Eto pong si Che Guevarra ay hindi po rockstar, siya ay isang revolutionary leader na dating tropapips ni Fidel Castro, ang diktador at incumbent president ng communist Cuba mula pa noong 1950's. Siya ay mahigpit na kalaban ng imperyalismo at isang dedicated na rebolusyonaryo. Siya nga lang ay napatay sa Bolivia ng hukbong sandatahan nito (sa tulong ng mga CIA na umaaligid lang). Atin din makikita ang mga portait ni Che Guevarra sa gusali at mga pader sa bastyon ng mga rebelde sa Iraq at sa Iran, ang 2 naging archenemy ng U.S.
Para sakin, si Che ay simbolo ng katapangan at kakisigan. Itinatak niya sa kanyang isipan na kahit gaano kalaki at kalakas ang kanyang kakalabanin, kakayanin niya itong kalabanin hanggat di nauubusan ng paraan.( alam ko na inisip din niya na mahirap kalabanin ang imperyalismong amerikano )
Ganun dapat tayo!
Pero di ko lubos na maisip na mas sisikat pala si Che Guevarra kung sakali siya ay naging rakista..
Si Che po ay revolutionary leader, hindi po rockstar..haha