Monday, October 09, 2006

The Matrix Mysticism

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While the stated reason for the early release and accelerated post-production process of The Matrix was to beat the marketing hype that surrounded The Phantom Menace, it is not without coincidence that The Matrix was released on the last Easter weekend of the dying twentieth century. It is a parable of the original Judeo-Christian worldview of entrapment in a world gone wrong, with no hope of survival or salvation short of something miraculous. The Matrix is a new testament for a new millennium, a religious parable of the second coming of mankind’s messiah in an age that needs salvation as desperately as any ever has.

Keanu Reeves plays Thomas Anderson, a computer programmer by day who spends his nights in the alternative reality of the Internet, where he goes by the name Neo, spending his time among hackers and phreaks who have come to rely on his expertise. Symbolically, Reeves’ character plays that of both new convert and Christ in the film and is on the receiving end of some of the world’s most ancient wisdom wrapped in some of the best modern technological analogies. "You are a slave" and "We are born into bondage" are the two sentences Morpheus speaks to Neo that reveal the biblical analogy to the Judeo-Christian understanding of slavery to sin. Like the biblical understanding, our technoslavery is a bondage of mankind’s own making, a product of our own free will, as evidenced by Agent Smith’s revelation that this is the second Matrix. The first Matrix, Smith says, was perfect, but we humans decided we wanted to define ourselves through our misery, and so we couldn’t accept it. This is the technological version of the Garden of Eden story from Genesis. There we see that the very first use of technology was clothing, so it is significant that Neo is reborn completely naked.

Within that framework, The Matrix is also the story of the chosen one’s doubts, slow realizations, and final discovery that it is he, and not anyone else, who is the savior. Anderson must first be convinced that the realm he inhabits as Neo has provided him a glimpse of the true reality, while his everyday existence as Thomas Anderson is actually the false consciousness, the world of the Matrix in which he senses, but cannot prove, that something is terribly wrong. This thought tortures him like a "splinter in the mind."

Neo is contacted first by Trinity, a slightly androgynous female counterpart to his slightly androgynous masculinity. It is she who leads Neo to Morpheus. Trinity is an obvious allusion to the biblical concept of a triune God consisting of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Because of the long-standing patriarchal metaphor for God, it is quite humorous when Neo says to Trinity, "I always thought you were a guy." Also of note is the fact that the word "trinity" never actually appears in the Bible. It is during Neo’s second conversation with Morpheus, just after he wakes up from being interrogated, that Morpheus reveals his role as John the Baptist by saying, "You may have been looking for me for a few years, but I’ve been looking for you for my whole life." However, Morpheus also plays the role of God the Father to Neo and the rest of the small band of rebels. He spends a significant part of the film teaching Neo the nature of "reality" as opposed to the world of the Matrix. When Morpheus is captured by the agents, as his body lies there helpless, Trinity says, "No, he’s much more important than that. He’s like a father to us."
To join Morpheus and Trinity in experiencing the depth of this true reality, Neo must be born again. As he is jacked in to the initiation sequence, Cypher tells him, "Buckle your seatbelt, Dorothy, ’cause Kansas is going bye-bye." Reeves’ character is literally born again into the new world in a visually explicit birth from a biotechnical womb that spits him out like a newborn infant: hairless, innocent, covered in muck, and eyes wide open in awe. He sees that he alone, of all the millions of entombed and enwombed humans plugged in as batteries to the Matrix’s mainframe, has been allowed to break free of his shell. The wombs are slightly opaque, allowing the inhabitants to at least glimpse a portion of the reality to which they are enslaved. The implication is that everyone can be freed, following the example set by the savior. (There is also a nice 2001 star child visual reference during this sequence.)

Just prior to his rebirth, Neo turns aside and sees a fragmented mirror, which becomes whole as he looks into it. He is about to make the journey into the self, or psyche, and the metaphor of a shattered universal mirror is one that Huxley and others have also used. He reaches out and touches the mirror, which then becomes whole, which nicely references I Corinthians 13:12, "For now we see through a glass darkly, but then face to face." The mirror then liquifies and swallows Neo, confirming for us that this is essentially an inward journey he is making. Upon being reborn, Neo asks Morpheus why his eyes hurt: "Because you’ve never used them," comes the reply. Or, as William Blake puts it, "If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to us as it is, infinite." In one of the first scenes, we see Neo sell a software program to a character named Troy for two grand, to which Troy replies, "You’re my savior, man, my own personal Jesus Christ." Troy’s reference in this conversation to mescaline is a reference to Huxley’s mescaline experiment book The Doors of Perception. Huxley’s title is drawn from the William Blake quote and was also subsequently the source for the name of Jim Morrison’s rock group, The Doors.

In Greek mythology, Morpheus was the god of dreams, and his name is the linguistic root for words like "morphine" (a drug that induces sleep and freedom from pain) and "morphing" (using computer technology to seamlessly transform from one reality to another). This resonates with the ability of Fishburne’s character to morph back and forth between the dream world (the "real" world) and the waking world (the Matrix). Morpheus asks, "Have you ever had a dream, Neo, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream, Neo? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?" The stage is now set for the film to equate the dream world with the digital world, the world of pure consciousness that exists in infinity. It is an equation that works, because life on the screen is a disembodied life, a virtual existence where the rules of society and the laws of physics don’t necessarily apply, which is why online relationships are so intoxicating and addictive. It’s also one reason why they fail so completely when the people actually meet. Like a movie version of a book, the real version of an online person’s self cannot help but disappoint, simply because the codes and conventions of space and time are so constrictive of the power of imagination.

As Morpheus tells it, the One has been prophesied, like Jesus of Nazareth, from time immemorial. The revealer of ultimate truth is the Oracle, played as a soul-food mama (cf. Meet Joe Black) with more of a sense of humor than seriousness, who nevertheless gives Neo the key insight into the nature of fate vs. free will that is critical to the film’s final twist. That the Oracle is a woman is also a key ingredient in the film’s theology. The brothers Tank and Dozer have their biblical precedents in the apostles James and John, who were also brothers and called the "sons of thunder," which makes sense since both a tank and a bulldozer are modern technological "thunder" makers. But The Matrix is not simply a Christian allegory; it is a complex parable that pulls strongly from Judaism and other traditions. In their initial discussion about the One, both Morpheus and Neo are in cramped quarters wearing what is clearly the garb of concentration camp victims: rough-textured wool and blue-striped bed linens. But because Jewish history has not yet given us a political Messiah, and perhaps because Jesus was himself Jewish, the Wachowski brothers seem to be comfortable relying on Jesus’ story as a precedent for their own. When asked if E.T. wasn’t a retelling of the Christ story, Steven Spielberg said he "resented" the comparison because he was Jewish. So too might the Wachowski brothers have inadvertently relied on the only well-known ressurection messiah story lying around.

And yet critics are saying the film is equally influenced by Zen Buddhism or eastern mysticism. Many of the lines, and certainly the martial arts sequences, are certainly all aspects of an eastern influence. But people often make the mistake of assuming that Judaism and Christianity are somehow exclusively "western" religions. Both are situated geographically and historically in Israel, which is on the Asian continent. The holy city of these two religions is Jerusalem, which sits in the navel of the world, as the meeting point of east and west. In other words, Judaism and Christianity are religions that share and have been influenced by both east and west, and have influenced both eastern and western philosophies since time immemorial. Thus, if you think you’re seeing a lot of Alan Watts’ The Supreme Identity in the film, you probably are. But Watts isn’t seeing something new by saying that east and west can be reconciled, he’s simply pointing out what was there all along.

The Judas character, named Cypher, is sympathetically played by New Jersey tough guy Joe Pantoliano. Like Judas before him at the last supper, Cypher accepts his fate as traitor over a meal. Like Judas, who shares a drink with Christ at the last supper, Cypher and Neo share a cup while Cypher expresses his doubts about the whole crusade with the line, "Why oh why didn’t I take the blue pill?" We see Neo part ways with Cypher by not finishing the drink, but instead handing the remainder over to Cypher. We know Cypher is up to no good when he breaks the convention of social hygiene by finishing Neo’s drink for him after Neo leaves. Cypher also wears a reptile skin coat, which alludes to the biblical figure of Satan as serpent. It is Cypher’s doubts about Morpheus’ certainty that Neo is the One (note the nice anagram of Neo = One) that causes Cypher to betray the cause, because he’s not certain he’s fighting on the right side, or at least not on the winning side. There is a nice mealtime scene, reminiscent both of 2001 and Aliens, in which Mouse waxes philosophic about the nature, essence, and ultimate reality of food, which serves to confirm the drudgery of everyday life for this ragtag team of revolutionaries. The food scene, and the discussion of the woman in the red dress, confirm the loneliness and difficulty of life on the Nebuchadnezzar. Like the faithful of any religion, our apostles are tempted by the Matrix’s illusions and are often led into daydreaming or fantasizing that ignorance really can be bliss. This confirms the Christian idea that the believer really is an alien in this world and is only a visitor, a transient resident, an alien on a temporary visa. As the anti-Christian filmmaker Luis Bunuel accurately puts it, "Properly speaking, there really is no place for the Christian in this world." Neo’s new life is living proof of this maxim.

It is immensely significant that Cypher’s deal-making meal with the agents centers around steak. First, meat is the metaphor that cyberspace inhabitants use to describe the real world: meatspace is the term they use to describe the non-virtual world, a metaphor that clearly shows their preference for the virtual realm. Cypher says that even though he knows the steak isn’t real, it sure seems like it. The stupidity and superficiality of choosing blissful ignorance is revealed when Cypher says that when he is reintegrated into the Matrix he wants to be rich and, "somebody important, like an actor." It’s a line you could almost pass over if it wasn’t so clearly earmarked as the speech of the fool justifying his foolishness. But meat is also the metaphor that media theorist Marshall McLuhan uses to describe the tricky distinction between a medium’s content and its form. As he puts it, "The ‘content’ of a medium is like the juicy piece of meat that the burglar throws to distract the watchdog of the mind." This line illuminates the fact that many people watching The Matrix are seeing only the "content" of the kung-fu scenes and the electronica soundtrack while missing the serious sermon going on all around them. But it also heightens the point that the story is making about the Matrix itself, which is designed, like Huxley’s "brave new world," to oppress you not through totalitarian force, but through totalitarian pleasure. As Agent Smith says, "Isn’t it perfect? Billions of people, just living out their lives, oblivious." "Steak" is also the password revealed for the website at the film’s closing credits, though there are nine passwords total to reveal hidden messages on the website.
Because it’s a Hollywood picture, Jesus has to have a girlfriend, (as he did in The Last Temptation of Christ), who is fantastically played by the little-known Carrie-Anne Moss. Her character, Trinity, is a mix of Mary Magdalene and the Holy Spirit, as evidenced by her earthly-and-yet celestial relationship with the One. She follows him everywhere, and the Oracle has told her she would fall in love with him, and so it is she who represents eternal, infinite, unbounded love by giving Neo the kiss of Princess Charming at the end with the line, "You can’t be dead, because I love you." This line may have had you fighting the gag reflex, but the point is that love is stronger than death, that God is manifested by a triune love relationship, and this was simply the best way to show the miraculous Christ-likeness of Neo. The power of her love to bring him back from the dead is also foreshadowed by her statement that she is the "commanding officer" on the ship, indicating her authority over him. Love is stronger than death, but the film could have shown this in a better way, even if only by developing their emotional relationship by an extra five lines each. Then again, if the Wachowskis are planning two sequels, it would make sense to have them kiss with about as much passion as Leia kisses Luke in Empire Strikes Back. This way we won’t be shocked in three years to discover that they were actually brother and sister, or part of the same heavenly family, all along. But the important thing to remember is that Neo really is dead before this, having been riddled with bullets by the three agents. After receiving the kiss, he is resurrected in the Hollywood equivalent of three days, which is about three seconds.

Upon rising from the dead, Neo experiences the cosmic revelation of his identity, similar and yet dissimilar to Superman. Superman has an Achilles heel in the form of kryptonite and is also powerless to save his father from dying—despite all his other strengths. Neo’s realization, however, is that he has no weaknesses, no fatal flaws, that he is in fact an infinite being. Having had the doors of perception fully cleansed, Neo can now "see" things as they truly are—which is in binary code. He looks down the hallway and sees the three agents as a series of flowing digits, meaning that he alone is now able to bridge the gap between analog and digital realm, able to control the digital rather than be controlled by it. Like the previous messiah that Morpheus alluded to, he is now able to remake the Matrix as he sees fit. He is a bullet-proof Christ, not dying for our sins and coming back, but dying for his unwillingness to believe in his own power, who comes back to life through the power of someone else’s belief, and who then asks us to join him in the fight against the Matrix. Like Jesus, he is the intermediary between our "bound" selves and our free selves. His is the example we are called on to follow in order to remake the Matrix with him.

A sympathetic understanding of Agent Smith is to assume that his hatred of humanity was programmed by the A.I. of the Matrix. This would indicate that the Matrix has learned what humankind failed to learn, which is how to manage A.I. technology successfully. But Agent Smith’s "revelation" speech is flawed: man is obviously a mammal. The fact is that no animal moves instinctively toward an equilibrium with its environment. Every animal is forced there by the competition of other lifeforms. Mankind is unique insofar as it has, alone among species, been able to vanquish its competition. Agent Smith may have been more accurate when he referred to man as a cancer. Just as cancer cells are human, so also human beings are mammals. And Agent Smith, the film makes clear, also wants to escape the Matrix. He has been infected by the "virus" of humanity and is desperate to know the Zion access codes, not so much to destroy the revolutionaries as to free himself.

At the film’s conclusion, the invitation is clear. The film stops where it starts, with us staring at a blinking cursor on the computer screen in Room 303. Neo is making a call to us, sitting out there in the audience, to join him in fighting the Matrix’s bondage. Like the final scene in Superman, Neo flies up and out of the screen as if to help us break free of our bondage, to suggest that he really is real, to suggest that we really can be free. One interpretation is that Neo is flying into us the way he flew into Agent Smith, to liberate us by destroying our preconceptions. In order to understand our preconceptions, our bondage, our slavery, all we need to know is one thing.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Rizal the Mystic

Based on accurate historical accounts, we now know that the Naga and Rosicrucian brotherhood has existed for thousands of years, influencing and reforming the process of human evolution in this world in the many ways we are not at all very familiar with. To carry out their bidding, the Brotherhood chooses the suitable individual, the most able of men for specific tasks concerning humanity. So who would have thought that our well-regarded hero, Dr. Jose Rizal, besides having had multitudinous accomplishments and titles, the Pride of the Malay race was also an attained mystic. Jose was a high initiate of the Naga and Rosicrucian Brotherhood, both of which are esoteric schools, the repositories of Ancient Wisdom. The hero-mystic utilized this privileged studentship in both these schools to further radiate the self-effulgent Light within himself for his intended purpose of serving his country. This lingering sense of being duty-bound was unceasingly echoed in his Masonic writing which was a lecture titled “Science, Virtue and Labor,” presented in 1889 at his Lodge in Madrid, the noteworthy part which I shall quote below:

“The duty of modern man, to my way of thinking, is to work for the redemption of humanity, because once man is dignified there would be less unfortunate and more happy men that is possible in this life. Humanity cannot be redeemed so long as there are oppressed peoples, so long as there are some men who live on the tears of many, so long as there are emasculated minds and blinded eyes that enabled others to live like sultans who alone may enjoy beauty. Humanity cannot be redeemed while reason is not free, while faith would want to impose itself on facts, while whims are laws, and while there are nations who subjugate on others. For humanity to be able to attain the lofty destiny toward which God guides it, it is necessary that within its fold there should be no dissensions nor tyranny, that plagues do not decimate it and no groans and curses can be heard in its march. It is necessary that its triumphant career march to the tune of the hymns of glory and liberty with a bright face and serene forehead.”

Jose’s childhood was in every way superior to others during his time. Though a sickly boy during his young years, he was able to advance not only physically, but also in intellectual terms. He was able to expand his insatiable thirst of knowledge for the literature, arts and sciences at an immature age. Rizal was truly an advanced soul. This man, an adept-of-all-trade, possessed a keen interest and high degree in culture, and that is indeed a sign of a mystic. But in spite of having a short curriculum on Earth, he became a scientist, polyglot, artist, inventor, writer, among the many others of his feats in relation to his human endeavor. Jose Rizal’s sitting on a high pedestal was in no doubt an ample proof of his mystical leanings and successes, which also sheds light on the mystery of his many abilities.
In his younger years, Rizal had a rigid religious practice and that being exposed in a devout Catholic family. His quest for higher spiritual truths never ceased to fade during the years. In his sojourn in Europe during the early 1980’s, he became a Freemason in Madrid partially which was for his anticlerical purposes. Being in the organization got him in touch with the inner intellectual circle of Europe, most of who were Rosicrucian initiates. Also within the records of the Rosicrucian Grand Lodge in Paris, Jose Rizal was a designated secret Grand Master of the European Jurisdiction. He was highly recognized among Europeans noting not only the fact of his high mystical realization but during his time of stay in Europe, there was a boiling attitude of racial discrimination. Our hero’s European trip was an assimilation of knowledge and also in preparation for his purpose of eradicating clerical tyranny if not Spanish hegemony, over the Philippines.

If we look back at history, it shall come into your understanding that most men who were primed for the task of evolving human consciousness were trained and fitted under the auspices of the esoteric schools like our Order, The Order of the Hermetic Gold and Rose+Cross. They were spiritual practitioners or mystics. Great minds endowed with Wisdom through the practice of secret knowledge were Abraham, Moses, Jesus, Alexander the Great, Napoleon, George Washington, Leonardo da Vinci, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, just to name a few. They were transformed from simple men to great individuals who were shared with Cosmic wisdom so as to let themselves be tools of the Cosmic will. Dr. Jose Rizal was a remarkable individual who achieved a great leap of evolution in his lifetime, having bestowed upon the every mystic’s goal, that is Cosmic Consciousness. As he was made hero for, his Cosmic-appointed task was to be a key by sacrificing his life to the Filipino people in shifting their consciousness towards determination to knowledge, equality, freedom and self-reliance.

Monday, April 24, 2006


Oh shit! To what places my mind have been. Im starting to wander far from myself..its like Im in some kind of unexplainable dont know who you're having friction with.

I thought I must be the stupidest person around for having thought of the most grandiose label I can impose to myself. I must admit that for some time my ego has been trying to take hold of me. I even dunno what Im thinking about right now, all I know is that Im on an emotion-unleashing phase..

I looked back at all the crap Ive written here..
It doesnt make sense to me anymore..
My personal philosophies I've held on to seems like a heap of trash.

I wanted something which is not me, yet it is in me.
I wanted something which will annihalate my "I"

Do I deserve what I want? I know there are lots of evil in me..
Do I have the chance of having to possess the most coveted price?

Someone is whispering repeatedly theses phrases in my ears..
"..ethical living..must have..ethical living.."

Please help me to struggle..

I thank God now.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Random Thoughts

What I am writing now is based on my random thoughts. I let it fly over the different horizons, viewing the world from atop the sky. But I cannot be satiated with this view so I'll fly low, taking notes on the details of the landscape..Then I feel I become more powerful.


Sometimes we suffer because we fail to acknowledge that we are at one time, stupid. We are so egotistic that our self is comparable to a kite without a string, borne away to oblivion. Upon the acknowledgment of our weakness, true strength emerges.


Really, when I heard that how we perceive things are products of the brainwashings of our environment. I knew it to be true. Its really hard to believe that this country is living in a black propaganda lifestyle-and we are literally feeding on it. What we all think is neither true nor false. If your opinion is that our present living is deteriorating, it is only yours. When the world suffers and feels confused, I stay calm, satisfied and overflowing with joy. Then the world merges with me.


I knew it but I havent seen it. I dont know it, but I have seen it. By His virtue, I will neither know it or know it not, nor will i see it or will see it not, nor will i taste nor hear nor everything. By the Divine Play all things are set in motion. All is as He wills it. He wills all to be Him.


It is easy to see how we humans lacked understanding of our own self. So in a futile attempt to try to understand oneself, we categorized, set standards, saw black as black and white as white, perceived poor as poor and rich as rich, differentiated a Christian from a Hindu and Moslem, and a Filipino from an American. We thought we must exist in diversity or variety. So from this conception flowered useless knowledge. But is there such thing as polarity? Or it exists only in the mind? I want to know..

Friday, March 17, 2006

Please, struggle..

The universe is a battlefield.

I refuse to be beaten. I will not falter. Now that I have awakened a part me, I will punch a hole in every wall, strike my adversaries, and will beat any opposing force. I still refuse to accept the brainwashings that was infused in my brain ever since I was a child, not because I believe those are all deep shits, but because the things that my surroundings were trying to inculcate were wholly false, blatant lies. Its properties constitute the making of a human. Bullshit! We are not humans, what we think of ourselves now are products of our spiritual amnesia. We are Gods and we are God's! The latter statement I shall not cease to prove. If its means to struggle and die..
I will carry my struggle in my bone marrow, ny brain cells, my pores and every miniscule part of my being. I have decreed myself as the epitome of all struggles.

This universe is a battlefield. Those who fight gets the glory and I shall fight to find the story of my existence.

Monday, January 16, 2006

My 1st 365 Days in the Rose Garden

In the last 365 days, I treaded the path were roses bloom. A very narrow, stone-paved path amidst the garden of roses. I am imagining myself of what I’ll be like when I meet the Gardener who tenders all these roses. With great excitement I’ll prepare myself to meet Him. When I do, all ask Him the nature of His garden, the flowers, the insects, the animals and the sky above His garden. For sure the Gardener will impart to me His methods of planting and how His garden came to be.

As I continued to walk, my mind was diverted to some thoughts. I saw myself being embraced in the Gardener’s presence as we talked. We were happily conversing about many things and I noticed that as I try to catch His pace, all roses of different stages of growth seem to bow in His luminous presence. He walked ahead of me and I followed His steps and in His very path that I also took, the thick bushes of thorns vaporized.
I wasn’t hurt anymore by the thorns as long as the Gardener went ahead. I followed the Gardener further. Farther in front of me, a brilliant light lit. The Gardener was outpacing me. He ran towards it. He seems to be excited to be engulfed in the Light. Before He let Himself be absorbed by the Light, He signaled me to follow Him. My distance from the Gardener was 41 yards when He entered the Great Luminosity.
After He penetrated, the thick bushes of thorns and other obstacles started to materialize before my eyes. The next 40 yards leading to the Light was lonely, hard and exacting. I stumbled as I try to make my way through. Sharp thorns poked my flesh and I bled. I almost gave up but I remembered the Gardener. I longed to be with His presence. With all devotion I persevered until the last 40 yards were over. I didn’t notice that I was making my last yard of thorns when a brilliant white light on the path appeared and swallowed it until I saw no path.
The Light absorbed me and I couldn’t identify myself anymore as me. When the Light became I and I became the Light, I understood all the Gardener’s work and all that I wished to know were known.

As I came back from these thoughts, a particular seed, as if struggling to implant itself firmly in the soil amidst the various stages of the many roses in the vast garden caught my attention. It was ordinary as the other seeds trying to grow in the garden, but I don’t know why it caught my attention.
I also took notice of the difference of the sides in which the seed was trying to plant itself in between. On the left of the seed, the majority were withered roses and rose seeds that failed or stopped germinating. The majority on its right side were healthy, blooming roses and germinating rose seeds. The remaining minority on the left side of the seed were healthy roses and seeds, while the minor population on the right side were ugly, withered roses and wasted seeds.
I felt that these plants have minds of their own, blooming only according to their own wishes no matter how much they are watered.

I was puzzled to see that the most beautiful rose in the garden grew on the top of a rock. I was astounded more that the seed grew on very little water, a subsistence that would prove lethal to its species. The Gardener loved the seed no matter how it lived on little water and sunlight, and the seed too loved Him. Through the Gardener’s love the seed bloomed to become the most beautiful rose.

My mind now was fixed back again to the struggling seed. I knelt with my left knee and touched the seed and wished I could be a help to its growth. I thought of uprooting it and placing it in a good place where there is fertile soil, more sunlight and less competition for water absorption. But in my mind the seed talked. It told me never to mess with its growth or it will will be destroyed.
I gazed at the seed for some time.
Then there was a flashback of events, narrated in exact and vivid manner.

I saw the very first time I entered the rose garden. I also saw that something fell from inside my pocket the very instant I took my first step in the garden. It wasn’t clear to me what it was but the only thing I was sure was that I didn’t brought anything with me. Little by little it came to me that what fell from my pocket was a rose seed, and that rose seed was the struggling seed that I am gazing at right now! I also knew that were I was travelling was circular, a large circular garden. That's why there was an instant I thought I saw this way once.How unaware I was that I have with me that seed even when I still was not taking the path where the roses bloom.
Many things were made clear to me.
Then I saw myself trying to find a way through the last 40 yards of the path! The thought that I had earlier came to me in a vision, hoping to be much exactly a prediction! In my vision, while I was getting more hurt taking my last 40 yards the more the seed hastened its growth.
I stopped seeing things and felt the need to advance in the narrow path where the roses bloom.
Its just my 1st 365 days. There are more thorns ahead and more laps to make.
As I took steps I though again of my seed, the thorny path ahead and the Gardener.
Maybe, as I get hurt treading this thorny path my seed will grow, with the Gardener’s grace.
And maybe when my seed grows, the Gardener will spring from nowhere in the garden and recognize me as His fellow.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Installing Love

Customer Service: Can you install Love?

Customer: I can do that. I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready to install now. What do I do first?

Service: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, I have, but there are several programs running right now. Is it okay to install while they are running?

Service: What programs are running?

Customer: Let me see… I have Pasthurt.exe, Lowesteem.exe, Grudge.exe and running right now.

Service: No problem. Love will automatically erase Pasthurt.exe from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually overwrite Lowesteem.exe whit a module of its own, called Highesteem.exe. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge.exe and Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed.Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Service: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke Forgiveness.exe. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge.exe and have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, I’m done. Love has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?

Service: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your Heart. Do you see that message?

Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?

Service: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops… I have an error message already. What should I do?

Service: What does the message say?

Customer: It says ”Error 412 – Program not run on internal components.” What does that mean?

Service: Don’t worry, that’s a common problem. It means that the Love program is set up to run on external Hearts but has not yet been running on your Heart. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means that you have to ”love” your own machine before it can ”love” others.

Customer: So what should I do?

Service: Can you find the directory called ”Self-acceptance”?

Customer: Yes, I have it.

Service: Excellent, you are getting good at this.

Customer: Thank you.

Service: You’re welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the ”Myheart” directory: Forgiveself.doc, Selfesteem.txt, Realizeworth.txt and Goodness.doc. The system will overwrite conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete ”Selfcriticize.exe” from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it! Wow! My Heart is filling up with really neat files. Smile.mpg is playing on my monitor right now, and it shows that, Peace.exe and are copying themselves all over my Heart!

Service: Then Love is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go…

Customer: Yes?

Service: Love is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you are meeting. They will in turn share it with other people, and they will return some really neat modules back to you.

Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.

Service: You’re very welcome.

Courtesy: Krupa Darshan, Ranjit Mayekar, USA